The Silver Lining
This post is weeks overdue. I have felt the need to write it for a while now but for many reasons have not been able to. I will begin it by saying that I don't know how clear it will come across as I am feeling a bit messy today.
Prior to our trip to Vegas, things had gotten very stressful and shady with my husband's employment. To say that he's put blood, sweat and tears into this company and into his work for the past five years would be a huge understatement. I won't even go into all the details of what he (and we as a couple) have been through for this job. He had some words with his boss before we left town and as a result he was not fully able to enjoy the trip. You could see the weight of the world on his shoulders. We had fun, but there was definitely this huge elephant waiting in the corner for us when we got home. He never went back to work. One of the owners from the company flew from CA to NY and he was let go.
Heavy Sigh
So we are officially on week three of surviving off my paycheck. So far that's ok because we had all the bills paid this month. Come next month at this time our entire lives will change.
Good Timing or Bad Timing?
The lease on our apartment ends soon. We need to be out of the apartment by October 28th. I can't remember if I wrote about signing the extended lease (it was a huge ordeal). The bottom line is we need to be out by that date. However, due to the fact that we did not sign a full year's lease we are responsible for the rent for the following two months if no one else has signed.
We sat back letting all this information sink in. Truly taking it in. We are not happy living in Long Island. We have known that since we got here. We did give it an honest try, but one thing we both know without a doubt, we can not live here any longer. It is not the place for us. We moved here because of his job. That job is now gone. But I have a good job. I actually have a great job (for the first time in my employment history). However, if this is our opportunity to get out of here we need to take it. The lease is up. We have to move regardless.
We've talked about moving back to Rochester and moving back to Colorado. The bottom line is this, we are about ready to start a family. Having kids without the support and aid of our families terrifies me. I do not want my children to see their grandparents, aunts, uncles, nieces and nephews once or twice a year. I do not want the financial burden of thousands of dollars to rest on us or our families just to visit each other. I do not want to save and use every single vacation day for the rest of our lives traveling back to Rochester. I just want to live in Rochester and have vacation days to use on Colorado and other dream vacations.
So for the past three weeks we have both polished up our resumes. We've been scouring the internet for jobs to apply to. The reality of the economy is tough. Rochester has been a depressed area for many many years. Now it's really bad. I'm feeling a bit discouraged but I'd like to say "Thank You" to starpush for your recent posts which have really encouraged me to remain positive and to send out the good vibes which will take flight.
At this point, we do not have any interviews lined up, but I need to believe that we will, and soon. I'm a little worried about the date that is exactly four weeks from today. The date where we no longer have a place to live. The ideal situation would be that we are both offered jobs in Rochester within the next few weeks and we are to begin working the first week in November. Ok, if that doesn't happen second best would be if Aaron is offered a job there and I put in for my last week here to be the end of October and we move then while I continue to job search. We have family we can stay with while we adjust to where to live once we are there. We just need to have income to support the ongoing bills that will not disappear (of which there are many).
We've changed our lifestyles so much in the past few weeks. Where we once enjoyed the luxury of going out to dinner on the weekends and maybe going to the movies or frolic around we've adjusted to making meals at home every night (ok we ordered Chinese food once last weekend!). We have DVR'd plenty of movies to keep us occupied at home.
There is one thing that I have learned many times before, but am reminded of in times like these, I am so truly in love with Aaron. Our time together over the past few weeks has been saturated. We are never apart except when I am at work, and we are having a great time together. We are scared, unsure, and nervous, but we are steady. Rock Steady and ready for this next adventure.