the rose in the concrete
in the past three months or so i've checked livejournal about once a week. what i realized is that it's all the same, it never changes. not just overall, i'm talking each and every person. every once in a while you get the post from someone saying they realized some things, they are making some changes, things will be different. but later that week, maybe the next week on a rare occasion, the posts return to normal. writing this now, i realize that the anomoly of the "things are changing" posts aren't really anomolies at all, but instead just part of the normality.
which leads me to wonder if anybody is changing at all... perhaps people are just hoping they change but society and life has already taken hold and we've become who we will be for the rest of our lives. little changes here and there i'm sure... maybe slightly more drastic changes as slighty more drastic life changes occur (such as having a child)... but for the most part, we're stuck.
one of my faults is that i can't let things go. and i don't give second chances. i've been burned too many times to keep giving chances. i'm moving, and i'm not looking back. i'm sure my name is on the tip of your tongues when it comes to disappointment. realize that it was a conscious effort on my part, and that the decision was based on disappointment i experienced first. most of you probably don't even realize what was your incident, but i guarantee you i can produce it on request.
think about what you want in life, and go get it. i fear that many of you will sit idly by and watch as you slowly fall onto the path most taken. fill in line with the sheep. wake up years from now and wonder why things turned out the way they did. or maybe never wonder, since you didn't expect anything more. all i know is it won't be me. i already know it won't happen.
i'll get all i want in life because life is all i have.
or i'll die trying.
which leads me to wonder if anybody is changing at all... perhaps people are just hoping they change but society and life has already taken hold and we've become who we will be for the rest of our lives. little changes here and there i'm sure... maybe slightly more drastic changes as slighty more drastic life changes occur (such as having a child)... but for the most part, we're stuck.
one of my faults is that i can't let things go. and i don't give second chances. i've been burned too many times to keep giving chances. i'm moving, and i'm not looking back. i'm sure my name is on the tip of your tongues when it comes to disappointment. realize that it was a conscious effort on my part, and that the decision was based on disappointment i experienced first. most of you probably don't even realize what was your incident, but i guarantee you i can produce it on request.
think about what you want in life, and go get it. i fear that many of you will sit idly by and watch as you slowly fall onto the path most taken. fill in line with the sheep. wake up years from now and wonder why things turned out the way they did. or maybe never wonder, since you didn't expect anything more. all i know is it won't be me. i already know it won't happen.
i'll get all i want in life because life is all i have.
or i'll die trying.