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When I woke up this morning.. I don't know.. I just felt worse than usual. I tried to write a poem or fifteen to make myself feel better, but it was all.. awful drivel, really, and... I don't even know how to write about how totally worthless I am. Or at least how I feel.. there's no excuse for how untalented and worthless I am, I think.. I'm not really good at anything other than being in the way, and I'm an annoying person to boot.. I don't even know why I thought I could be anything better.. If I ever did think anything else..
I shouldn't even try.. the failure just adds to the misery.. I just feel in the way at the meetings, and in the other me's house.. especially after the last few daisies died.. I guess they needed to be planted... or something.. ;__; I don't know.. I have no idea what to do with myself.. I wasn't cut out to be in the military.. I don't know.. even my secret admirer got bored with me... I'm so hopeless.. I'm sorry.
I shouldn't even try.. the failure just adds to the misery.. I just feel in the way at the meetings, and in the other me's house.. especially after the last few daisies died.. I guess they needed to be planted... or something.. ;__; I don't know.. I have no idea what to do with myself.. I wasn't cut out to be in the military.. I don't know.. even my secret admirer got bored with me... I'm so hopeless.. I'm sorry.