Bothersome stresses...
- Just came out of a funk of a depression and sickness... I've been sick 3 times since school started. My GF has been sick twice... guess that's how relationships keep things going. No real reason as to the lil depression moody time... maybe a man period, maybe a culmination of things, but I'm on the up... except for a few things....
- My grandma is in the hospital again (she was just in a few wks ago). She's 90 and has had basically perfect health until now... she's quite the optimistic one and really has most of "it" all together still considering her age, so I'm sure she'll keep fighting. It's just hard to see good people, strong people, optimistic people suffer... especially when they've always been a bright spot in your life. So if anybody cares to take a minute and think of her, me, and my family I'd appreciate the kind thoughts and regards. We're supposed to have a family reunion of sorts on Sunday and I was looking forward to spending time with them all, Grandma especially though. So hopefully the end of the wk will turn out well and we'll have a good time on Sunday.
- Another thing that has become bothersome... To sum it up by what my dad said "You're basically a freak, and people like a freak show" The stares and whispers and "hidden" discussions about me in public are actually quite noticeable and have become so frequent that it's growing extremely tiresome. 240lbs, fairly lean, yes I get it...I'm (my type is)not that common. But please be considerate of me and those around me. My GF does not want to have our dinners and lunches interrupted by ridiculously blatant stares. I was quite accustomed to it, and it never really bothered me... until I thought about it more... I'M NOT A CELEBRITY... I am human... just be courteous... I'm a nice guy if you feel the urge to talk to me or about me, I'd rather you come over and interrupt for a minute or two than sit there through the entire dinner or movie and have you stare and whisper about me. I'm not a famous football player, I'm not a famous wrestler, I'm just a college kid who loves to bodybuild and I'll talk to anybody who respects me as a human and is courteous. I'm just venting here... ever since I went past the 200lb barrier people have always stared, whispered, yelled things, etc... but now it's been 4 yrs and it's way more frequent and noticeable now... so much so that I have started to plan my public outtings based on how many people might be around. I used to like to be in a crowd... but now the idiots have turned me away from going almost anywhere. Shit, even people walking the aisles at Publix have to stare or have some "sly" comment to make. I have good eyes and ears, I see a lot and hear a lot... and your "subtleness" is OBVIOUS. Alright I'm going to go rest and de-stress a bit... then I gotta hit up my legs to become even more of a FREAK SHOW.
That's a lot of ranting and venting... sometimes ya just gotta vent just to vent... And I understand some things won't ever change. So I guess it's all good. Later peeps. Hope all is well in your land. Hopefully things will be on the up and up in my land really soon. Much love. Peace.
- My grandma is in the hospital again (she was just in a few wks ago). She's 90 and has had basically perfect health until now... she's quite the optimistic one and really has most of "it" all together still considering her age, so I'm sure she'll keep fighting. It's just hard to see good people, strong people, optimistic people suffer... especially when they've always been a bright spot in your life. So if anybody cares to take a minute and think of her, me, and my family I'd appreciate the kind thoughts and regards. We're supposed to have a family reunion of sorts on Sunday and I was looking forward to spending time with them all, Grandma especially though. So hopefully the end of the wk will turn out well and we'll have a good time on Sunday.
- Another thing that has become bothersome... To sum it up by what my dad said "You're basically a freak, and people like a freak show" The stares and whispers and "hidden" discussions about me in public are actually quite noticeable and have become so frequent that it's growing extremely tiresome. 240lbs, fairly lean, yes I get it...I'm (my type is)not that common. But please be considerate of me and those around me. My GF does not want to have our dinners and lunches interrupted by ridiculously blatant stares. I was quite accustomed to it, and it never really bothered me... until I thought about it more... I'M NOT A CELEBRITY... I am human... just be courteous... I'm a nice guy if you feel the urge to talk to me or about me, I'd rather you come over and interrupt for a minute or two than sit there through the entire dinner or movie and have you stare and whisper about me. I'm not a famous football player, I'm not a famous wrestler, I'm just a college kid who loves to bodybuild and I'll talk to anybody who respects me as a human and is courteous. I'm just venting here... ever since I went past the 200lb barrier people have always stared, whispered, yelled things, etc... but now it's been 4 yrs and it's way more frequent and noticeable now... so much so that I have started to plan my public outtings based on how many people might be around. I used to like to be in a crowd... but now the idiots have turned me away from going almost anywhere. Shit, even people walking the aisles at Publix have to stare or have some "sly" comment to make. I have good eyes and ears, I see a lot and hear a lot... and your "subtleness" is OBVIOUS. Alright I'm going to go rest and de-stress a bit... then I gotta hit up my legs to become even more of a FREAK SHOW.
That's a lot of ranting and venting... sometimes ya just gotta vent just to vent... And I understand some things won't ever change. So I guess it's all good. Later peeps. Hope all is well in your land. Hopefully things will be on the up and up in my land really soon. Much love. Peace.