Mother's new word is 'pro-active'. Which is all good and well, but going to driving lessons and booking an optometrist appointment isn't going to help with my living situation. And while I hear what you're saying, and you're right, you're totally right, nothing's going to change until I get a job. Which might be possible later this year, but not while I'm doing the the Greencorps thing and not with uni starting in a month. Once I've finished that, maybe I can find something better-paying and earn some money, but that's still months away. *sighs* And it's not guaranteed, the economy's crap, there are lots of people out of work, and who are more qualified and experienced than I am.
As for resources- I don't have any friends in real life, not close friends. I see Katherine and Jacob maybe two or three times a year? And they're not the most reliable people either, though at this point, if I got an offer from either of them, I'd probably jump first and look later. And my cousins- none of them are moving out any time soon, and even if they were, they have significant others to consider. Although Netty's still a contender, because Ryan's a nice dude and probably wouldn't mind, but they're not moving any time soon.
Anyway. Even if nothing's going to change in the near future, it really helps having you to talk to. I mean that- mainly just to make me feel better and also to remind me that this kind of behavior isn't called for and that I don't deserve it. I get told enough that I should get over it and get used to it that I start believing that. So thank you for always being there for me when I'm at my lowest points, 'coz you don't know how much I appreciate it. *hugglesquish*
Pro-active is a good word, even if you cant change your father, you can change yourself. As I said, it could be a long journey, and a hard one, but believe it is one worth walking. In the end, all you have in this life is you. Its great to have friends, loved ones, co-workers, all that, but if you cant live with you then its nothing. Just start walking, you'll find your way. You're a smart girl, resourceful, all of that stuff is inside you Annie, I wouldnt lie to you about that. Hell, someone who puts as much thought and concentration into LJ posts as you do has all of it inside of them. you're going to do great things in life, you just have to start walking. I truly, truly believe that.
And I always got your back. I've gone on the journey, I know some of the way. Our paths may be a little different but I know I never would've gotten as far as I have if I didnt have a few good souls along the way to remind me that I'm not alone and just because I was learning and growing and changing didnt mean I should forget to smile, laugh, and sometimes even fight tooth and nail.
As for resources- I don't have any friends in real life, not close friends. I see Katherine and Jacob maybe two or three times a year? And they're not the most reliable people either, though at this point, if I got an offer from either of them, I'd probably jump first and look later. And my cousins- none of them are moving out any time soon, and even if they were, they have significant others to consider. Although Netty's still a contender, because Ryan's a nice dude and probably wouldn't mind, but they're not moving any time soon.
Anyway. Even if nothing's going to change in the near future, it really helps having you to talk to. I mean that- mainly just to make me feel better and also to remind me that this kind of behavior isn't called for and that I don't deserve it. I get told enough that I should get over it and get used to it that I start believing that. So thank you for always being there for me when I'm at my lowest points, 'coz you don't know how much I appreciate it. *hugglesquish*
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And I always got your back. I've gone on the journey, I know some of the way. Our paths may be a little different but I know I never would've gotten as far as I have if I didnt have a few good souls along the way to remind me that I'm not alone and just because I was learning and growing and changing didnt mean I should forget to smile, laugh, and sometimes even fight tooth and nail.
*hugshugshugs* &hearts &hearts &hearts
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