Crap

Feb 26, 2008 13:53

So. Here's my list:

1) I had to drop out of school this semester.

2) After the end of this month I will have about $30 in my entire bank account, once I pay rent, utilities, cable/internet, and food.

3)I got a second job so I can catch up with money issues.

4) My grandma keeps offering to help me for a few months by lending me money and letting me pay her back over the summer. Why don't I take it? Because she will never, ever, let me pay her back. Whenever she "lends" me money, and I try to pay her back later, she doesn't take it. She already gave me about $1000 for a graduation present. No more. She has done enough for me.

5) Now that I've dropped out of school because of work, I don't know if I'll be able to get my financial aid that is still pending. I'm going to try to get it since I did go to school last semester. But something tells me it's not going to happen.

6) My cell phone bill is way past due. I think I'm going to have to pay it with my credit card. Which I really didn't want to do, but I don't think I have any other choice, besides having it turned off.

7) A day off? Yeah right. Monday through Thursday I'll be working at a telemarketing company from 1 to 9. Then Friday through Sunday I'll be working at Chili's whenever they feel like scheduling me. The only time I'll get to rest is outside on a smoke break, or when I get home and crash on the couch.

8) I think something might be wrong with my kidneys. I'm getting random hot flashes and pain on and/or around my kidney region. Visit a doctor you say? I'd love to, but regardless of the fact that I'm still on my parent's insurance, mommy and daddy are refusing to pay for any doctor visits, exams, x-rays, or medication. I found this out when I was about to go in to get my UTI examined about a month and a half ago. A nurse told me over the phone that the symptoms I have may have something to do with my kidneys not functioning properly, so they would have to take appropriate tests, oh and I was due for a shot, so I may as well get that done too. Once I tell all this to my mom, she kindly reminds me that she will not be paying for any of this. I had no money at that time either, so I skipped out on all of it and toughed it out without any medication (besides child's ibuprofen...which were orange flavored...and delicious).

9) Even with all of this going on. For some reason, I'm still really happy. Stressed...but happy. I didn't feel like complaining in this entry, but it just sort of dawned on me: A lot is going on in my life. If all of this was happening to me while I was living in Marin, I'd be a twitching, nervous, depressed wreck. But, I'm on my own and living and doing what I want. I can't help but feel overcome with relief that I am no longer trapped in that house with my family or in close proximity to many peers who, I learned, I could not trust.

10) Inspiration has just struck me; I got a new idea for a tattoo. Now I just need a wait a few months until I can afford it.

Ta.
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