shit. well first of all wherever you got the rat you should go back and get another one telling them the rat was sick!
as for the other stuff, i have gone through this, too. pretty much from age 13 and on i was obsessed with suicide. i carried around a folder with all these gruesome pictures and even prayed to die every night.
i'd rather hear that you're talking about it whether good or bad in a chat than hearing you are getting ready to do it. i know i've longed for it with more passion than i ever had towards anything and my poor friends had to hope for the best everyday.
i still have days i talk about it. it's just not an actual option now that i have my son. i love my son to death, wouldn't trade him for the world, but i never wanted kids because of being suicidal. i have days where i may be angry that it's not an option anymore or i'm angry because i still think about it and feel he should be enough to not feel these ways.
i personally hope you stick around awhile longer. age 19 to about last year (28) were the hardest of my years. give it a little time. :)
as for the other stuff, i have gone through this, too. pretty much from age 13 and on i was obsessed with suicide. i carried around a folder with all these gruesome pictures and even prayed to die every night.
i'd rather hear that you're talking about it whether good or bad in a chat than hearing you are getting ready to do it. i know i've longed for it with more passion than i ever had towards anything and my poor friends had to hope for the best everyday.
i still have days i talk about it. it's just not an actual option now that i have my son. i love my son to death, wouldn't trade him for the world, but i never wanted kids because of being suicidal. i have days where i may be angry that it's not an option anymore or i'm angry because i still think about it and feel he should be enough to not feel these ways.
i personally hope you stick around awhile longer. age 19 to about last year (28) were the hardest of my years. give it a little time. :)
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