Ramblings for July 11th.
I wonder at times what is out there for me? It seems like at times everything is all so perfect in my little world. Then one second later my little world is in shambles. How ever I feel like it stays more in shambles than being perfect or just ok. I know no ones life is perfect. I know mine is far from it. I really just want to find a happy medium. I think that is what really all of us want in life. Just to find a happy medium.
Recently over the last few months I have tried online dating sites. I have tried them before. I have made new friends, gone a few dates, but nothing serious has really developed. Any ways I have used several different sites. Most recently I tried E-Harmony. Well I was caught off guard. I thought the commericals about E-Harmony rejections were a joke. They are not. I signed up for it to give it a try and I was rejected. I was not compatiable with their database for some reason. Sorry that I like history, reenacting, and railroads so much. Oh well. Maybe it is a sign. Maybe I am suppose to be single and alone. I really hope that is not the truth.
Lately I have not been handling being alone. It just seems like my place is just cold and lonesome while I am there. It would be different if I had some one else in my life. Some one that I could just spend time with, and have a stimulating conversation with. I miss just the simple pleasures of being in a relationship. I miss the gentle touch of some one against my skin. I miss holding hands. I just miss the simple pleasures that we all take for granted.
Like a friend told me, and keeps reminding from time to time......I will find some one when I stop looking. I know there is truth to that. I am just restless.
Any ways I think I am going to a ball this weekend. I am about 99.9% sure. I am not sure if said person will impale a bayonet thru my heart if I wear the wrong attire? There is a 50/50 chance on that happening. Hopefully said person will not really impale me.
Plans are devoloping to get the rail car moved from its current location and have it operational for at least one or possible two local trips. Time is short, but I am thinking it can happen. I want it to happen. What was suppose to take 6 months to get the car operational for just local use has taken almost 4 years now. It feels llike the rail car is the center of my failures. I mean 6 months has turned into almost 4 years now. I think if we get the car up and running, maybe then I will feel like I have finally accomplished something in my life. I will take failure and turn it into success.
Recently over the last few months I have tried online dating sites. I have tried them before. I have made new friends, gone a few dates, but nothing serious has really developed. Any ways I have used several different sites. Most recently I tried E-Harmony. Well I was caught off guard. I thought the commericals about E-Harmony rejections were a joke. They are not. I signed up for it to give it a try and I was rejected. I was not compatiable with their database for some reason. Sorry that I like history, reenacting, and railroads so much. Oh well. Maybe it is a sign. Maybe I am suppose to be single and alone. I really hope that is not the truth.
Lately I have not been handling being alone. It just seems like my place is just cold and lonesome while I am there. It would be different if I had some one else in my life. Some one that I could just spend time with, and have a stimulating conversation with. I miss just the simple pleasures of being in a relationship. I miss the gentle touch of some one against my skin. I miss holding hands. I just miss the simple pleasures that we all take for granted.
Like a friend told me, and keeps reminding from time to time......I will find some one when I stop looking. I know there is truth to that. I am just restless.
Any ways I think I am going to a ball this weekend. I am about 99.9% sure. I am not sure if said person will impale a bayonet thru my heart if I wear the wrong attire? There is a 50/50 chance on that happening. Hopefully said person will not really impale me.
Plans are devoloping to get the rail car moved from its current location and have it operational for at least one or possible two local trips. Time is short, but I am thinking it can happen. I want it to happen. What was suppose to take 6 months to get the car operational for just local use has taken almost 4 years now. It feels llike the rail car is the center of my failures. I mean 6 months has turned into almost 4 years now. I think if we get the car up and running, maybe then I will feel like I have finally accomplished something in my life. I will take failure and turn it into success.