Family
My older brother Scott has turned into a moron because of his wife Sara who absolutely hates me. And no matter how far I try to rise above and beyond and be polite and maybe salvage whatever kind of relationship her and I have left, I still get this cold, snotty attitude. I'll admit I just dont like her but she's my brother's wife and the mother to my niece Lauren and I'm not gonna be an asshole about it.
So then I try to have a heart to heart with Scott about wanting to spend time with him and Jason (my middle brother) on the Friday I took off from work. Immediately I get this speech about how I have "unrealistic expectations" for the way that I expect him to behave towards me, how I'm leaving out Sara and the baby, and my favorite "Dont you WANT to spend time with Lauren?"
Oh fuck you honey. Of course I want to spend time with her and dont be a shit thinking I dont. Why does wanting to spend time with my siblings mean that I hate my niece? Why does it have to be both? Why cant he freaking see that? Why the hell doesnt he get that its important for the three of us to spend time together too, especially now that we are in 3 different states?
I'm sick of trying to salvage it. He's been brainwashed. He's not the person I thought he was. To be honest I feel like I dont know him anymore. What do we have in common? How could our personalities clash any more? Do we miss each other when we're gone? I dont know and these are damn honest feelings about it. I'm not thrilled with these feelings but I do feel an indifference towards him. There's nothing warm there. There's just frustration and...just different lives. Differences exist of course but...I dont know how to describe it. I just dont....care.
And I'm not expecting anything unreasonable because me and my other brother Jason are absolute best friends. There's no reason Scott and I cant do that too. But for some reason, we just cant. It's sad but its very, very true. I would hate to think that it started because of Sara...but it really did. It really really did. He wasnt like this before, but now he is. And I cant fucking stand it.
On top of which, he's in town now with her and the baby and because of their bitchyness, my mother called me and was a total bitch about some other shit that I had no control over. So I've got to deal with the whole group of them.
Thank god my fiance is here for this. I wish we lived in Alaska. I cant be home for Passover from Alaska. It's too cold to travel.
So then I try to have a heart to heart with Scott about wanting to spend time with him and Jason (my middle brother) on the Friday I took off from work. Immediately I get this speech about how I have "unrealistic expectations" for the way that I expect him to behave towards me, how I'm leaving out Sara and the baby, and my favorite "Dont you WANT to spend time with Lauren?"
Oh fuck you honey. Of course I want to spend time with her and dont be a shit thinking I dont. Why does wanting to spend time with my siblings mean that I hate my niece? Why does it have to be both? Why cant he freaking see that? Why the hell doesnt he get that its important for the three of us to spend time together too, especially now that we are in 3 different states?
I'm sick of trying to salvage it. He's been brainwashed. He's not the person I thought he was. To be honest I feel like I dont know him anymore. What do we have in common? How could our personalities clash any more? Do we miss each other when we're gone? I dont know and these are damn honest feelings about it. I'm not thrilled with these feelings but I do feel an indifference towards him. There's nothing warm there. There's just frustration and...just different lives. Differences exist of course but...I dont know how to describe it. I just dont....care.
And I'm not expecting anything unreasonable because me and my other brother Jason are absolute best friends. There's no reason Scott and I cant do that too. But for some reason, we just cant. It's sad but its very, very true. I would hate to think that it started because of Sara...but it really did. It really really did. He wasnt like this before, but now he is. And I cant fucking stand it.
On top of which, he's in town now with her and the baby and because of their bitchyness, my mother called me and was a total bitch about some other shit that I had no control over. So I've got to deal with the whole group of them.
Thank god my fiance is here for this. I wish we lived in Alaska. I cant be home for Passover from Alaska. It's too cold to travel.