a very sad and painful night, but i think derek likes me!!
wow, last night lucy called me and said "do you wanna go clubbing tonight" and i was like "omg how dare you think i wanna see derek!"
and then she got all bitchy and was like, "don't be stupid, i didnt even mention derek's name"
so i was all "just shut up lucy, i NEVER WANNA SEE DEREK AGAIN AS LONG AS I LIVE" and slammed down the phone. but then 20 mins later i felt bad because i had no one to go out with and being at home was depressing so i called her back and we agreed to meet at club skanque. so i put on my prettiest shortest skirt because i knew derek would be there and i didnt want to see him again but of course i had to look good just in case he tried to talk to me right?
so i walk into the club with lucy and i see derek on the other side of the room and he DIDN'T EVEN LOOK AT ME. what a jerk. i mean, u just cant ignore a gurl who's in love with you you know?
so when lucy went to the bathroom i went over to derek and i was gonna tell him what a jerk he was but then he looked at me and said "oh, hi." my heart melted!! he looked so hot in his oversized singlet with all these big gold chains around his neck, he was so hott that i just didnt have the heart to bitch him out hehe. so we chatted awhile, i think he may really like me! i think i'm in love with him again!
after awhile tho lucy came back from the bathroom and started talking to derek! i cudnt believe that bitch was trying to steal my man! i dragged her outside and said "yo whats your problem bitch, youve been acting like a bitch all day long and now you're trying to steal my man!"
she snarled at me and said "i realise that you havent been laid in quite some time and that youre really desperate, but for fucks sake it wasn't like i was shagging him on the dancefloor!" what a BITCH!!
and then she glared at me and said "you can find your own way home" and she stormed to the parking lot and drove home. so i went back inside to find derek and he was hanging out with this girl called shauna, she was drunk and he kept giving her mouth to mouth resusitation to stop her from passing out. i asked him for a lift home and he said he was busy with shauna but he gave me twenty cents and told me to hail a cab, that was so sweet of him!!
still i was crying when i got back outside tho. and i cried in the cab, and the driver felt so sorry for me he pushed me out of the cab when i got home and didn't even ask for money, he drove off grumbling. and then i cried myself to sleep... i swear no one understands how much pain i feel, no one is ever there to hold me. all i want is a guy who will wipe away my tears and give me sum sex for the first time in two years, is that so much to ask? when i woke up i had smudged makeup around my eyes and it was a bitch to remove! ugh my life is so sad, today was such a sad day.
anyway i gtg but leave me notes it will make me feel better haha :D luv clarissa xxXXx
and then she got all bitchy and was like, "don't be stupid, i didnt even mention derek's name"
so i was all "just shut up lucy, i NEVER WANNA SEE DEREK AGAIN AS LONG AS I LIVE" and slammed down the phone. but then 20 mins later i felt bad because i had no one to go out with and being at home was depressing so i called her back and we agreed to meet at club skanque. so i put on my prettiest shortest skirt because i knew derek would be there and i didnt want to see him again but of course i had to look good just in case he tried to talk to me right?
so i walk into the club with lucy and i see derek on the other side of the room and he DIDN'T EVEN LOOK AT ME. what a jerk. i mean, u just cant ignore a gurl who's in love with you you know?
so when lucy went to the bathroom i went over to derek and i was gonna tell him what a jerk he was but then he looked at me and said "oh, hi." my heart melted!! he looked so hot in his oversized singlet with all these big gold chains around his neck, he was so hott that i just didnt have the heart to bitch him out hehe. so we chatted awhile, i think he may really like me! i think i'm in love with him again!
after awhile tho lucy came back from the bathroom and started talking to derek! i cudnt believe that bitch was trying to steal my man! i dragged her outside and said "yo whats your problem bitch, youve been acting like a bitch all day long and now you're trying to steal my man!"
she snarled at me and said "i realise that you havent been laid in quite some time and that youre really desperate, but for fucks sake it wasn't like i was shagging him on the dancefloor!" what a BITCH!!
and then she glared at me and said "you can find your own way home" and she stormed to the parking lot and drove home. so i went back inside to find derek and he was hanging out with this girl called shauna, she was drunk and he kept giving her mouth to mouth resusitation to stop her from passing out. i asked him for a lift home and he said he was busy with shauna but he gave me twenty cents and told me to hail a cab, that was so sweet of him!!
still i was crying when i got back outside tho. and i cried in the cab, and the driver felt so sorry for me he pushed me out of the cab when i got home and didn't even ask for money, he drove off grumbling. and then i cried myself to sleep... i swear no one understands how much pain i feel, no one is ever there to hold me. all i want is a guy who will wipe away my tears and give me sum sex for the first time in two years, is that so much to ask? when i woke up i had smudged makeup around my eyes and it was a bitch to remove! ugh my life is so sad, today was such a sad day.
anyway i gtg but leave me notes it will make me feel better haha :D luv clarissa xxXXx