Life as it is and not as you want...
I pretty much know what I want. I want to know, to learn, to grow and to experience that which I've yet to experience. Yes, I also want to have fun, feel comfortable, safe, content and all that, but more important than that is advancement. Life is not about staying put, but growing to one's full potential.
The problem I continually encounter is fate/God continually slows me down. To really grow and to experience new things I have to leave my comfort zone and enter new circles, or I have to expand and deepend my older social circles. However, no matter what my actions are I seem to only reinforce the status quo or fall flat on my face.
As I evaluate my life, all the best things fall into two categories: the things I have structured myself to be good at and the friendships I've been blessed with. The frustrating thing is that these two things are not correlational. No matter how hard I try I cannot discover how to further my friendships or uncover new ones. All my skills and talents seem to work against me. Never do the friendships/relationships I work on pan out. It always comes down to chance it seems, and if you know me I had leaving things to chance.
So, what to do from here?
Well, I think a big problem I have is that I have built of fortress of status quo in my life. Even the drastic life changes I have enacted are not enough to unsettle the rock solid foundation for the so-called person that I am. My image is definitely bigger than life.
I've also decided to be a little more forward. I don't have time for subtle games. Lately I've been as blunt as can be. The results are still pending, but initial results look positive.
As always, life's a journey.
The problem I continually encounter is fate/God continually slows me down. To really grow and to experience new things I have to leave my comfort zone and enter new circles, or I have to expand and deepend my older social circles. However, no matter what my actions are I seem to only reinforce the status quo or fall flat on my face.
As I evaluate my life, all the best things fall into two categories: the things I have structured myself to be good at and the friendships I've been blessed with. The frustrating thing is that these two things are not correlational. No matter how hard I try I cannot discover how to further my friendships or uncover new ones. All my skills and talents seem to work against me. Never do the friendships/relationships I work on pan out. It always comes down to chance it seems, and if you know me I had leaving things to chance.
So, what to do from here?
Well, I think a big problem I have is that I have built of fortress of status quo in my life. Even the drastic life changes I have enacted are not enough to unsettle the rock solid foundation for the so-called person that I am. My image is definitely bigger than life.
I've also decided to be a little more forward. I don't have time for subtle games. Lately I've been as blunt as can be. The results are still pending, but initial results look positive.
As always, life's a journey.