So Wise and Yet So Dumb
I'm beginning to see my future. I'm definitely moving closer to that wild old sage. You know, the guy who everyone looks up to and goes to for wisdom, but nobody thinks is human. I find myself surrounded by people and yet spending more time in my head than anywhere else. I look around and think about others, myself, the world, and don't have anyone to share it with. I tell some friends, but some don't pay attention, others don't understand, and others just listen and have nothing to add.
I don't begrudge the part I play, but I do wish I could take a more active role in life. Too many people keep their distance with me. Everyone is so guarded and hardly anyone wants inside anymore. Maybe that's because I share so much freely now or maybe it's the intimidation factor or ???
I have taken some steps though to changing my life and starting a new future. If all goes according to plan I will be leaving OU in a year and living somewhere else. Perhaps even out of state. Details will be announced as they become available...
So many things to ponder though...
I really wonder why social circles are so set. Why is it that we are so hesitant to get to know new people? Why are we so afraid to grow and learn? Do we decide how we are or is everything we do a conscious choice? I've got plenty more and spend a load of time trying to sort through them all, but to no avail.
Hmmm, time will tell. However, if I'm right, you'll soon find me to be the strange old sage who lives by himself. A man, who people come to for wisdom, but a man entirely cut off from life. This is the man it seems I was meant to become. The question is whether I accept my fate and allow destiny to take me where it will, or if I drag my feet kicking and screaming the entire way...
Time will tell...
I don't begrudge the part I play, but I do wish I could take a more active role in life. Too many people keep their distance with me. Everyone is so guarded and hardly anyone wants inside anymore. Maybe that's because I share so much freely now or maybe it's the intimidation factor or ???
I have taken some steps though to changing my life and starting a new future. If all goes according to plan I will be leaving OU in a year and living somewhere else. Perhaps even out of state. Details will be announced as they become available...
So many things to ponder though...
I really wonder why social circles are so set. Why is it that we are so hesitant to get to know new people? Why are we so afraid to grow and learn? Do we decide how we are or is everything we do a conscious choice? I've got plenty more and spend a load of time trying to sort through them all, but to no avail.
Hmmm, time will tell. However, if I'm right, you'll soon find me to be the strange old sage who lives by himself. A man, who people come to for wisdom, but a man entirely cut off from life. This is the man it seems I was meant to become. The question is whether I accept my fate and allow destiny to take me where it will, or if I drag my feet kicking and screaming the entire way...
Time will tell...