Your the Mystery i want to solve.
i like My Chemical Romance, but i never use to really like them? im not sure if that is good or bad haha.
so i was at school, and for the first time all this year, i felt lonely, and i don't know why. becasue i choose to be that way, and its not like i need to always have someone with me because there usually isn't anyone with me, it was weird, i didn't like it. but you know i will get over it because im not going to just go out, when i don't want to be. and just date anyone just to be happy, even though i wish i could do that, im so confussing, i have been happy for awhile, i got everything i wanted to get back, and im still not happy. why why why :(. im thinking about going out more to the beach and the pool and stuff because i miss when my hair was really light, like strawberry blonde.. it would look weird though. at work yesterday this girl tiffany from last year, right when she walked in started crap with me, and now i really just wan't to like djglkaghdfg. err. so yeah, that was the main thing of my that day, today was just weird. ha. and tommorrow will probably be weird to. i've been getting annoyed by this girl i know, shes freaking me out.. but i like talking to her sometimes. but maybe its just because i don't have anyone else, but shes so rude. i hate it .. im starting to realize i dont get along with a lot of people more than i thought, haha. . . well i finnaly get to say that things with me and chris are finnaly done with, i hope. we are friends now, and i hope it stays that way, because i made alot of mistakes and i dont need to get into anything else with him.
gosh i just need someone that can calm me down and just tell me the right thing to do, when i need advice and just to talk to me or something. maybe that is all i need. is just a friend? and the ones that i try to get close to push me away. i dont get it anymore. i hate being sad.