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so confussing. why why why why why. i havent slept for a week almost, well atleast WELL. umm i just lay there and think about the same thing everynight. dreaming about him, thinking about him, wondering if he will show up friday or not. or something. i dont know. i cant stop thinking about it. yet i just want to smile becaue i hope i know he will give in finnaly, but i dont know if he wants to. i've been waiting soo long for this flippin moment, thats its going so slow, and if he turns me down, i cant ever go back to him again, because i have to keep my word. i will go crazy if he doesnt. ahhhh. gosh. the only person that could understand is me. and maybe him, because i am sure he knows and this isnt really for people to see because i know you fuckers dont care, and personnaly i dont want to this to be to you. soo ta ta. <3
im not sad!!