still here yet still missing something...
School is back into full swing and I am quite a busy girl these days. What is crazy is that I am not even in my major classes yet, the classes I am in are requried for my major but they are not nutrition classes. They are going pretty good i think although I am having a hard time finding time to study for anatomy, but it is really hard so I guess that is ok. I am still in CCF, SDA and I will hopefully be rushing Alpha Delta Chi this semster. I already know four out of the 12 girls and it looks like a great orginization. not like the ones on greek row that are overly consumed with image and money and getting drunk and passing out as an idea of fun. I really was only doing it for the friendship and philantrphy (sp?) I am already volunteering at the hospital two times a week, doing CCF once a week, school and doing SDA twice a month. I am glad that I have so much to keep me busy because I feel if i didnt i would once again slip into depression. Speaking of which i really havent been feeling all that great lately. I am only on 25 grams of zoloft a day which according to the manufacturer isnt even the reccomeneded dose. My psychatrist said that I could stay there if i felt ok with it because it is possible that it is working but if it doesnt get better we could increase it. I am pretty sure I am gonna check with him about increasing it because I just feel out of it of sorts. I know that some of what I need medicine cant give me but even with all this activity i still manage to have a lot more bad moods that good. I seem to take it out on people that dont even deserve it and thats not fair. I am trying really really hard to notice when i get in bad moods and do something to fix it. I have been sleeping a lot more than i usually do too but i go to bed at least by 1 most nights.
my next task is to find a job but i dont know that this is feasable. I woule love one on campus where i could work like 15 hours a week or something but with everything i am doing i really might not have time. or want to make time for a better reason. I still have some money left so I am ok for a little while but i am just think of what happens when the money runs out, then i might be in trouble.. heh heh. ahh well! So for the most part life is amazing and i have no complaints! :)
my next task is to find a job but i dont know that this is feasable. I woule love one on campus where i could work like 15 hours a week or something but with everything i am doing i really might not have time. or want to make time for a better reason. I still have some money left so I am ok for a little while but i am just think of what happens when the money runs out, then i might be in trouble.. heh heh. ahh well! So for the most part life is amazing and i have no complaints! :)