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it seems like all i write in here lately is how much my medicine is not working. and unfourtantly this new medicine is not working either. you would think after four different medications something would happen. this medicine was working for like a week and a half. now i feel myself slipping further and further into depression. lucky for me i wont ever try anything but that doesnt mean it doesnt suck or make me snap out of it like everyone thinks i can. it is really not that simple and i mean dont you think i would snap out if it if it possible. i really dont know anyone that enjoys being depressed and if they do then i dont really want to talk to them because i dont think people should like feeling depressed.
I went home this weekend because i was so depressed and i couldnt even snap out of it there. i had a few happy times when i went shopping and such but that it is. i didnt want to come back here because right now i am hateing school and i dont talk to people about what is going on because most do not understand and i am ridiculous and i think everyone is against me and thinks that i am making myself this way. it is not true and i know that most people dont think that but i still cant help feeling that way. i changed my appt to this wenesday and i am hopeing for once i will get medicine that works and continues to work but i just dont know if that is possible. i would rather go back on the effexor and deal with the mania and other side effects because it is better than being depressed and living in my own hell because i dont know how i am going to be on a day to day basis and if it will be a good or bad day. i like feeling like it is going to be a good day and that has just not been hapening.
oh and yeah i am really mad at bush for nomitaing a male to replace sandra. i mean what the hell?? i can respect that he is conservative because bush is too but why does he have to be male. what happened to women's equality and all that. does he think a male will do a better job because right now the males are not that impresssive. personally i dont think they should change roe vs. wade and will strongly oppose anything that makes abortion illegal because i feel the only person who has the right to judge if that is right or wrong is the individual person and GOd himself. i think i will move to australia with all this bs in the air..... ha ha ha the kangaroos could do a better job than bush
I went home this weekend because i was so depressed and i couldnt even snap out of it there. i had a few happy times when i went shopping and such but that it is. i didnt want to come back here because right now i am hateing school and i dont talk to people about what is going on because most do not understand and i am ridiculous and i think everyone is against me and thinks that i am making myself this way. it is not true and i know that most people dont think that but i still cant help feeling that way. i changed my appt to this wenesday and i am hopeing for once i will get medicine that works and continues to work but i just dont know if that is possible. i would rather go back on the effexor and deal with the mania and other side effects because it is better than being depressed and living in my own hell because i dont know how i am going to be on a day to day basis and if it will be a good or bad day. i like feeling like it is going to be a good day and that has just not been hapening.
oh and yeah i am really mad at bush for nomitaing a male to replace sandra. i mean what the hell?? i can respect that he is conservative because bush is too but why does he have to be male. what happened to women's equality and all that. does he think a male will do a better job because right now the males are not that impresssive. personally i dont think they should change roe vs. wade and will strongly oppose anything that makes abortion illegal because i feel the only person who has the right to judge if that is right or wrong is the individual person and GOd himself. i think i will move to australia with all this bs in the air..... ha ha ha the kangaroos could do a better job than bush