LJ you're my safespace.
Those other sites are just too scary. Best to go back to the forgotten friend.
Things have been good. Really really good. Got a half decent job. KP is doing well. Met the most wonderful guy. I love him more then I've ever loved anyone before. Of course, that comes with a whole lot of problems.
He's so intelligent, caring, sensitive, handsome. What do I bring to the relationship? Special ed me who couldn't even speak properly until middle school. The girl who couldn't even properly move away from home, went running to her family and looks back far too much for comfort. The one who's so selfishly blind to others. I bring nothing but my body, and that's not enough. He's going to know one day how much better he is. How much better he could do and I'll be crushed.
Anyway. (I'm not hyperventilating at ALL)
Anyway.
Anyway, I am loved and that's all that matters. I know this.
Don't be weird, Marie. Don't ruin this. Don't pedestal him. Be a good person. People like good people.
Odd thought: It's funny how I've had such a hard time defining beauty, happiness, adventure, or love but I've never struggled with the concept of good.
Things have been good. Really really good. Got a half decent job. KP is doing well. Met the most wonderful guy. I love him more then I've ever loved anyone before. Of course, that comes with a whole lot of problems.
He's so intelligent, caring, sensitive, handsome. What do I bring to the relationship? Special ed me who couldn't even speak properly until middle school. The girl who couldn't even properly move away from home, went running to her family and looks back far too much for comfort. The one who's so selfishly blind to others. I bring nothing but my body, and that's not enough. He's going to know one day how much better he is. How much better he could do and I'll be crushed.
Anyway. (I'm not hyperventilating at ALL)
Anyway.
Anyway, I am loved and that's all that matters. I know this.
Don't be weird, Marie. Don't ruin this. Don't pedestal him. Be a good person. People like good people.
Odd thought: It's funny how I've had such a hard time defining beauty, happiness, adventure, or love but I've never struggled with the concept of good.