Better now
Feeling a bit better now. Yesterday was rough, Ami talked me down quite a lot. Little things that are good have been making everything more bearable. I keep hearing this is normal? I suppose everyone has their problems and LJ is really only here for the bad times. But positives? Yes, let's.
Work is just alright(wait, that's not very positive). I'm surviving but just. Are the year end bonuses here yet? I can leave after them, right? I might leave sooner, actually. I have an interview tomorrow and a couple days later with different companies. Tomorrow is for a sales position and the later is for an events coordinator position. Both I think I have pretty good shots at. I want to get into sales but it's tough to convince people I'm charming. At this point I realize my main attraction is brutal honesty and that doesn't make for first impressions. I'm trying to be more social. Really.
Not that I don't like being a manager. I'm really quite good at it. It keeps me busy, changes everyday, and I get to say no a lot. I don't like being underpaid without benefits. It's really the lack of healthcare that scares me. Perhaps that will change with a new job?
There are people around me who want me to succeed and they'd help if I would only ask. That's rather comforting. I've met some really interesting people down here, if I would only give them a chance!
I'm kind of a health nut/gym rat. It didn't really start that long ago, just a few months but I'm just sayin I do have a 6 pack. Just sayin. Workouts are about the only thing right now I have total control over and so I go all the time. Cardio is still my weak spot, I haven't been able to push myself past a 8:30 minute mile. Comfortable is 9:30. Weight training is going much better now that I understand the concepts. That seems a bit silly but there are lots of loop holes for skipping gym in high school so I didn't learn about muscle groups or even reps and sets. The gym here is very limited in equipment but they have dumbbells and a treadmill and that's about all you really need. I won my bet and someone owes me steak.
KP is on a downward spiral and that is a very large cause of my unhappiness. I've grown rather attached to him.
I'm not ashamed to admit selfhelp books have improved my mood. I'm rereading "The Defining Decade" and it's just nice to hear someone else say things I think. It is very motivational. The chapter on life capital was especially refreshing. What I'm doing now may not make me the happiest but it better give me a good story or something to be proud of. I'm wasting time if it doesn't.
So wish me luck on my interviews. I always thought something has to come along but I've learned that's not true at all. It takes skill or at least in my case, practice.
Work is just alright(wait, that's not very positive). I'm surviving but just. Are the year end bonuses here yet? I can leave after them, right? I might leave sooner, actually. I have an interview tomorrow and a couple days later with different companies. Tomorrow is for a sales position and the later is for an events coordinator position. Both I think I have pretty good shots at. I want to get into sales but it's tough to convince people I'm charming. At this point I realize my main attraction is brutal honesty and that doesn't make for first impressions. I'm trying to be more social. Really.
Not that I don't like being a manager. I'm really quite good at it. It keeps me busy, changes everyday, and I get to say no a lot. I don't like being underpaid without benefits. It's really the lack of healthcare that scares me. Perhaps that will change with a new job?
There are people around me who want me to succeed and they'd help if I would only ask. That's rather comforting. I've met some really interesting people down here, if I would only give them a chance!
I'm kind of a health nut/gym rat. It didn't really start that long ago, just a few months but I'm just sayin I do have a 6 pack. Just sayin. Workouts are about the only thing right now I have total control over and so I go all the time. Cardio is still my weak spot, I haven't been able to push myself past a 8:30 minute mile. Comfortable is 9:30. Weight training is going much better now that I understand the concepts. That seems a bit silly but there are lots of loop holes for skipping gym in high school so I didn't learn about muscle groups or even reps and sets. The gym here is very limited in equipment but they have dumbbells and a treadmill and that's about all you really need. I won my bet and someone owes me steak.
KP is on a downward spiral and that is a very large cause of my unhappiness. I've grown rather attached to him.
I'm not ashamed to admit selfhelp books have improved my mood. I'm rereading "The Defining Decade" and it's just nice to hear someone else say things I think. It is very motivational. The chapter on life capital was especially refreshing. What I'm doing now may not make me the happiest but it better give me a good story or something to be proud of. I'm wasting time if it doesn't.
So wish me luck on my interviews. I always thought something has to come along but I've learned that's not true at all. It takes skill or at least in my case, practice.