I cried and said "fuck"
in my presentation today!!!!! So professional!
The presentation was about diversity and my part was about homophobia/ heterosexism. Everyone was looking all blank and bored..."yea we've heard about diversity a million times, who cares?" So I spontaneously decided to start my section with "Hi, I'm a bisexual." Then for the next 20 minutes I probably sounded like an idiot going on and on about hate crimes, what is heterosexism etc. But hey people were paying attention. I have never been so stared at in all my life. I got so nervous I said "fuck."
Then at the end, people started asking me personal questions and I started crying. It was ridiculous, embarrassing, but also freeing. Why do decide to tell 40 strangers that I'm bi, when it was really hard for me to even go into the GLBT office to get pamphlets, and I still can't tell some of my friends and family?
The part that got me crying was when this football player asked me if it was harder "to come out or stay in." I said it was harder for me personally to come out, but then I started talking about my lesbian boss who can't even talk at work about the fact that her partner just had twins because she is afraid of discrimination and judgment, and rightly so. That's when I started balling like a baby.
It was so weird. At least I only have to see those people in class 2 more times.
The presentation was about diversity and my part was about homophobia/ heterosexism. Everyone was looking all blank and bored..."yea we've heard about diversity a million times, who cares?" So I spontaneously decided to start my section with "Hi, I'm a bisexual." Then for the next 20 minutes I probably sounded like an idiot going on and on about hate crimes, what is heterosexism etc. But hey people were paying attention. I have never been so stared at in all my life. I got so nervous I said "fuck."
Then at the end, people started asking me personal questions and I started crying. It was ridiculous, embarrassing, but also freeing. Why do decide to tell 40 strangers that I'm bi, when it was really hard for me to even go into the GLBT office to get pamphlets, and I still can't tell some of my friends and family?
The part that got me crying was when this football player asked me if it was harder "to come out or stay in." I said it was harder for me personally to come out, but then I started talking about my lesbian boss who can't even talk at work about the fact that her partner just had twins because she is afraid of discrimination and judgment, and rightly so. That's when I started balling like a baby.
It was so weird. At least I only have to see those people in class 2 more times.