So I backslid hard tonight, but it made me calmer. I feel calm, for now. He's less final.
I've been thinking a lot about
Harlow's study on attachment with the infants and the monkeys. I feel grounded when I have that base, and utterly panicked without it.
I am actively looking for a therapist, but I hate that none of the ones I've looked at have hours on their website. What are the chances of finding one that takes my insurance and works late?