33 Days Until I Move
Well, it’s finally starting to sink in that I’ll be moving in 33 days. It’s weird...I don’t know how I should feel. I’m being pulled in so many directions right now. I’m damn happy that I’m getting out of this god forsaken place, away from my parents, away from these people, away from all the abuse, the drugs, and the mental decay. But in a weird way, I’m sad, I’m sad and I’m scared. I’m gonna miss everyone...of course not my mom and my family, they make me sick, I can’t even begin to look at them without getting physically ill. I’m gonna miss all my friends. Miss the security of knowing my surroundings. Miss my house. Miss knowing all the best places in Ottumwa. But I guess I’ll be able to gain all this anew in Lincoln. It’s just weird. I’ve wanted to get out of this town for so many years, but as soon as I get the chance, it seems like I‘m scared shitless.
I really need to get a job...just a temporary one, so I can pay my first month’s rent when I move. But I have NO IDEA where to apply...I’ve gone everywhere...WTF.
So, my grandma said she’d pay off my school fees so I can get my diploma before I move. And I’m trying to see if I can con my dad into paying my rent for the first month. So, altogether I’m looking at about 87 dollars for school, and 295 for rent. Crappity-crap-crap. Maybe I should go pawn some stuff...thing is, I have nothing to pawn. There is the car, it doesn’t run anyway, and dad hasn’t moved it in MONTHS, it’s just sitting there, maybe someone could get some use of it. I’m even considering doing housework for random people. ANYTHING...any offer for help?? Anyone???
I really need to get a job...just a temporary one, so I can pay my first month’s rent when I move. But I have NO IDEA where to apply...I’ve gone everywhere...WTF.
So, my grandma said she’d pay off my school fees so I can get my diploma before I move. And I’m trying to see if I can con my dad into paying my rent for the first month. So, altogether I’m looking at about 87 dollars for school, and 295 for rent. Crappity-crap-crap. Maybe I should go pawn some stuff...thing is, I have nothing to pawn. There is the car, it doesn’t run anyway, and dad hasn’t moved it in MONTHS, it’s just sitting there, maybe someone could get some use of it. I’m even considering doing housework for random people. ANYTHING...any offer for help?? Anyone???