i died and went to morphine heaven
i mentioned about my stabbing pains. i woke up at 5 this morning with TERRIBLE stabbing pains. i was dripping wet with sweat i was so hott and then i called my mom and was trying to tell her what happened and everythign s tarted goign in and out. and i fainted. when i came to i just started screaming. that went on for an hour. then they finally took me to the ER. i was bawling from pain and because i DID NOT want to go in there(i dont have insurance so i knew it was goign to cost soo much money). they gave me an iv and morphine right away i told them i needed more and they ended up giving me some atleast once an hour or more. and then they started giving me demeral. it was nice. i liked being fucked up again and having someone else shoot me up like at a drs office was great. it was wierd tho becuase i used to do like 200 mlgs or morphine and feel nothing they were giving me 6mlgs at a time and i was feeling it haha.
anyone whos shot up heroin you know that warm feeling you get right away, omg i got that like 1o times. it was amazing.
they did cat scans and ultra sounds and xrays and found NOTHING wrong with me. the dr gives me a script for 12-10 mlg PERCOCETS. i was like dude..you were giving me HOW MUCH morphine and i was STILL in awaful pain yo uthink that shits gunna work!?!? well they found nothing wrong, gave me a shitty script, but wanted to make me remember my visit so they stuck me with a $7,000 bill before i left. fucking great.
well when i got home i got ready and went to apply for a job. when i was filling out the app i started getting the sweats and then started feeling fainty so i ran to the bathroom and puked SO MUCH which was wierd cuz i hadnt been allowed to eat or drink ALL DAY. then i continued filling it out. i started to see white spots and then i couldnt hear anything and then everything went white. the boyfreind had to carry me out to the car. i couldnt hear ANYHING i was just shouting i was so scared.
i came home and passed out.
my mom says its an optical migrane and i need to not be so stressed i was like yeah mmk let me get RIGHT ON THAT. cuz i cant CONTROL that shit..
she wants to move to florida. thatd be sweet. i am over this place..haha.
well i have no money to even FILL my script right now. god it hurts so bad...
my mom said that she had months of negative ultra sounds before something(i forgot what she said) exploded inside her and only after that did they see it on the ultrasound but she said before that happened she started having the EXACT same optical migranes as i have been.
GREATTTTTTTTTt.
well im going to go back to sleep. im so weak.
and i was at 116.2 this morning and those fuckers pumped SO MANY fluids in me im back to 118. FUCKERSSSSSSSS. right when they said fluids in me this mroning the first thing that came outta my mouth was no ill get bloated. im dying from pain and im worried about gaining fluid weight..wow...........................