Events long since passed

[bolkridthedruid]

Events that have long since passed
Flutter into my mind tonight
Thinking of you fills me with joy
While my flesh turns to ice
Seeing you smile
Makes me squeal inside
And sadness pits itself in my stomach
Because I know
That even though I had you once
I will never be able to reclaim you again
I can’t quite understand
Why these feeling still remain
When after all this time
I’ve grown and changed
But thoughts of you still fill my head
And the pain you caused
Is not completely faded
But the love I had for you
Is still ever strong
It sometimes hurts
To just be your friend
But it’s better to be best friends
Then not to have you at all