*shivers*
I had a terrible dream last night. And the sad thing is that the dream wasn't frightening, surreal, or violent. It was, in fact, so realistic as to make me wonder if I was actually dreaming.
Essentially, in the dream, I'm at work. I overhear a conversation between Jillian and Rosemary that I probably shouldn't have overheard. Jillian starts by asking me to go clean up in the back room. She then proceeds to talk to Rosemary about how much she regretted hiring me and telling me about the potential for me to be an assistant manager. She talks about how poor my performance has been, and how I'd be great for like an office-type position if there was one available, but not for an actual assistant manager. She then goes into specific reasons why, like the days when she was away for a couple days in a row where she essentially left me in charge and the store didn't get put together the right way. She complains that I've been dropping hints about wanting the promotion, and she wants advice on a way to diffuse the situation.
I woke up feeling really crappy. This dream really hit upon all of my unspoken concerns about my job. What I'd really appreciate would be an evaluation of how I'm doing there, so I could focus on growing more competent in the areas where I'm not as skilled, and at least have the knowledge of what I'm doing well, if anything. It's really hard to tell sometimes, since the line between Jillian the Manager and Jillian the Friend is somewhat blurred. I kind of wonder if I'm just having self-esteem issues again, or if I'm genuinely picking up on unspoken thoughts and feelings. I think I'm going to ask Jillian for a frank and honest performance evaluation the next time we're working together.
Essentially, in the dream, I'm at work. I overhear a conversation between Jillian and Rosemary that I probably shouldn't have overheard. Jillian starts by asking me to go clean up in the back room. She then proceeds to talk to Rosemary about how much she regretted hiring me and telling me about the potential for me to be an assistant manager. She talks about how poor my performance has been, and how I'd be great for like an office-type position if there was one available, but not for an actual assistant manager. She then goes into specific reasons why, like the days when she was away for a couple days in a row where she essentially left me in charge and the store didn't get put together the right way. She complains that I've been dropping hints about wanting the promotion, and she wants advice on a way to diffuse the situation.
I woke up feeling really crappy. This dream really hit upon all of my unspoken concerns about my job. What I'd really appreciate would be an evaluation of how I'm doing there, so I could focus on growing more competent in the areas where I'm not as skilled, and at least have the knowledge of what I'm doing well, if anything. It's really hard to tell sometimes, since the line between Jillian the Manager and Jillian the Friend is somewhat blurred. I kind of wonder if I'm just having self-esteem issues again, or if I'm genuinely picking up on unspoken thoughts and feelings. I think I'm going to ask Jillian for a frank and honest performance evaluation the next time we're working together.