Winter doldrums...
I can feel it weighing down on me. I struggle with this much like most human beings during this time of year. No...It's not all about me even if I like to think so. I have been trying to stay active and continue with the plans identified at the beginning of the year. I'm reading this month's chosen book for the gay men's book club and plan to attend the meeting with Dave at the end of this month. The book is "The Line of Beauty" by Allan Hollinghurst. It's your typical gay fiction with all of the predictable adventures unfolding for the young main character as he discovers the wonders of being with other men...ok...I am so over this. I will plod through this just so I can have my experience of sitting in a book store with a gaggle of other queens so we can make fun of it.
I am signed up for an art class with MSCR beginning next Saturday 9 AM to 12 PM. It runs for 8 weeks. I hope this will help me to build my confidence back with drawing and painting. It has been several years since I have done any art work. I think the last time was my first year in Madison when I was working for REM. I had all of that free time to myself and the separate room in the basement to work in. It would be nice to focus my time and energy back into something positive. I feel like so much of my time has been wasted in gay bars in search of immediate gratification and a lot of times searching for more, which I know will not happen in that setting.
I am continuing the efforts to quit smoking once again. The past few months I have been torturing myself with binging on the weekends and then detoxing during the week. I hoping the art class will keep me out of the bars on Friday night and then I need to structure my time for the remainder of the weekend. I haven't come up with a full list of options at this point, but if all else fails there is always cleaning, writing, reading, visiting my parents and/or Jim and Maria.
I am signed up for an art class with MSCR beginning next Saturday 9 AM to 12 PM. It runs for 8 weeks. I hope this will help me to build my confidence back with drawing and painting. It has been several years since I have done any art work. I think the last time was my first year in Madison when I was working for REM. I had all of that free time to myself and the separate room in the basement to work in. It would be nice to focus my time and energy back into something positive. I feel like so much of my time has been wasted in gay bars in search of immediate gratification and a lot of times searching for more, which I know will not happen in that setting.
I am continuing the efforts to quit smoking once again. The past few months I have been torturing myself with binging on the weekends and then detoxing during the week. I hoping the art class will keep me out of the bars on Friday night and then I need to structure my time for the remainder of the weekend. I haven't come up with a full list of options at this point, but if all else fails there is always cleaning, writing, reading, visiting my parents and/or Jim and Maria.