i've been talkin' like, two heads knockin'. my friends, oh my friends, problems are, what a problem is. we hang on like barnicals on a boat. even though the boat sinks we know we can't let go
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daniel, my love, tonight i got us each a bottle of boons and some vodca. hey, i love you. thats all that really matters. and hey, your my best friend, and hey, your the closest friend ive ever had ever, and hey, maybe longer than ever now that i think of it.
you dont pay attention. the point of what i said to you is that i dont care how you feel about it. i wouldn't step inside your house if i was sent an engraved invitation. im not angry with you, like you want me to be. it's more like pity. a lot of it.
i don't want you to be angry at me. i don't want anything other than some fucking friends, and someone that i feel actually gives a shit about me, isn't going to ditch me or fuck me over. i know you don't care, that's apparently obvious even with meri telling me how i should try at this because you're so fucking broken up about it. yeah, i know you don't care, you're in a club larger than i can count. and as for the whole engraved invatation thing. well, you can do whatever the fuck you want, i'm glad you don't care that i'm trying. oh, and one final thing, the last thing i want from anyone is pitty. i don't know why you pitty me, i suppose i must have sunk to a level where people just look at me, and shake their heads in disgust, and say "whatever happend to dan". that might be the way things are now, but it's not going to be the way things alwasy are. so don't pitty me, just do whatever you're going to do, and i'll try to stay out of your life.
guess its my turn to reply right? i understand what you said and your right. i have neglected you and many others. i am at fault. i fucked up. i went on a rant in my journal. i was pmsing that is no excuse but that is what happend. i havent been spending time with you. im sorry. i do still want us to be friends. i love you. and i dont take those words lightly. and i know i say these things but i have yet to act upon them. but i shall state again i am sorry, i do love you, i do want to spend time with you, it is my fault that we havent i havent made the effort. so i ask you thursday day or saturday day if you have time for me i would like to spend some time with you, if you would still like to be around me. if not i understand. if we cant be friends any more ill understand that to. im sorry i failed you as a friend. im not perfect. im in a whole new situation i have never been in before and i guess im not dealing with it to well. all i can do is try harder and hope i have understanding friends left when i finally do get it right.
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you know what i mean.
you look like you could use some talcum !
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