ahem... little help?
i've been talkin' like, two heads knockin'. my friends, oh my friends, problems are, what a problem is. we hang on like barnicals on a boat. even though the boat sinks we know we can't let go.
issac brock gets the credit for that one.
so, to clarify a bit. housekeeping if you will. why? because people arn't me, and i don't fucking get it.
on, and all of you know how much i HATE delievering personal messages via live journal, but you all seem fond of it, so here it goes.
christina, first and foremost. how dare you think so low of me as to take that as an insult. how dare you. you think you're the only one with feeling that can be hurt? no, i have feelings thoughts and emotins too, and that cut me to the quick. what i said was that i thought it was healthier than your attachment because they were choosing not to exclude people. you yelling about all the people you still spend time with didin't help. still feels like i'm now excluded, and because i am not anyone else, nor can i be sure that they really exist, when i say excluding people i mean excluding me. and know what? it hurts, alright? so yeah, i side with the avoiding java, sure, it's way better that way. headed that way myself, but i am not trying to step on any fucking toes.
sam, sure, you are better than me. i'll just go ahead and agree with jesse if it means you'll go off and do something or someone and be happy. you're not going to have me back, so don't fixate on it. if you can't handle just being my friend, than go fuck yourself.
meri, you don't think i've been as close lately? no, i only completly changed how i felt about everything, and let my gaurd down a whole lot just to not lose you as my friend. so if you suddendly decide i'm not worth your time, i'm a little fucked. so, please do me the courtesy of making damn sure i'm worthless before disgarding me like a used condom.
jesse, as to how i deserved anyting, i'm at a loss for, but sure, lets just say i did. lets also say that for the lack of a better term, a miracle has occored. meri is a terrific girl, and don't doubt for a second that she is the only reason i kept showing up, and that i can talk to you. you're still not welcome in my house, but keep on your way and maybe just maybe it'll come to that point. i know you don't need me, no one does, but i'm fucking trying and that's all i really can do.
andrew, you're pissed of at everyone? like to voice your own opionins? good you're a free thinkiner. just don't act so fucking suprised when you get a bad reaction to some of the more hurtful things you say.
andy, you need to realise that in theis life there's not a whole lot to you can do to chage things. insted of being so upset about shit, realise this and roll with the the punches. things arn't always going to go your way, and in fact, most of the time they won't. be careful what you say when it comes to things you can't change, it's not going to give you the desired result, ever.
mike, you're lonley. join the club on that one. you need to delve yourself into the things that make you happy, only then witll you truly be happy. girls don't want a guy that's sad all the time. at least, most girls don't. the kind that do arn't the kind you want. people want to be around happy people. make yourself happy and good things will follow.
did i miss anyone? no? yes? in any case, there you go. feel free to hate me. this is the way i feel, and i am now totally ready to be bombarded with peoples' anger. so please, step right up to the bat and let me have it right out into the stands.
issac brock gets the credit for that one.
so, to clarify a bit. housekeeping if you will. why? because people arn't me, and i don't fucking get it.
on, and all of you know how much i HATE delievering personal messages via live journal, but you all seem fond of it, so here it goes.
christina, first and foremost. how dare you think so low of me as to take that as an insult. how dare you. you think you're the only one with feeling that can be hurt? no, i have feelings thoughts and emotins too, and that cut me to the quick. what i said was that i thought it was healthier than your attachment because they were choosing not to exclude people. you yelling about all the people you still spend time with didin't help. still feels like i'm now excluded, and because i am not anyone else, nor can i be sure that they really exist, when i say excluding people i mean excluding me. and know what? it hurts, alright? so yeah, i side with the avoiding java, sure, it's way better that way. headed that way myself, but i am not trying to step on any fucking toes.
sam, sure, you are better than me. i'll just go ahead and agree with jesse if it means you'll go off and do something or someone and be happy. you're not going to have me back, so don't fixate on it. if you can't handle just being my friend, than go fuck yourself.
meri, you don't think i've been as close lately? no, i only completly changed how i felt about everything, and let my gaurd down a whole lot just to not lose you as my friend. so if you suddendly decide i'm not worth your time, i'm a little fucked. so, please do me the courtesy of making damn sure i'm worthless before disgarding me like a used condom.
jesse, as to how i deserved anyting, i'm at a loss for, but sure, lets just say i did. lets also say that for the lack of a better term, a miracle has occored. meri is a terrific girl, and don't doubt for a second that she is the only reason i kept showing up, and that i can talk to you. you're still not welcome in my house, but keep on your way and maybe just maybe it'll come to that point. i know you don't need me, no one does, but i'm fucking trying and that's all i really can do.
andrew, you're pissed of at everyone? like to voice your own opionins? good you're a free thinkiner. just don't act so fucking suprised when you get a bad reaction to some of the more hurtful things you say.
andy, you need to realise that in theis life there's not a whole lot to you can do to chage things. insted of being so upset about shit, realise this and roll with the the punches. things arn't always going to go your way, and in fact, most of the time they won't. be careful what you say when it comes to things you can't change, it's not going to give you the desired result, ever.
mike, you're lonley. join the club on that one. you need to delve yourself into the things that make you happy, only then witll you truly be happy. girls don't want a guy that's sad all the time. at least, most girls don't. the kind that do arn't the kind you want. people want to be around happy people. make yourself happy and good things will follow.
did i miss anyone? no? yes? in any case, there you go. feel free to hate me. this is the way i feel, and i am now totally ready to be bombarded with peoples' anger. so please, step right up to the bat and let me have it right out into the stands.