I have gone to wanting to be social 24/7 to wanting to be alone as such. This is a strange feeling, and I ask myself what is wrong with me. It's only been a few days, and it's not like I feel depressed or anything. It feels more like a lack of motivation. I've been sleeping a lot too. For me at least, even falling asleep after I've been up for a ( Read more... )

Ever feel like the earth just fell out from under you and you aren't sure what to hold on to? Okay, yes, that's a little dramatic but from about five different directions today I've had to re-evaluate my life. Each time I've cried. It's the fifth anniversary of 9/11 and it feels so weird to know it's really been that long. These past five years ( Read more... )

Miles might be the only one who understands that, but that's okay. Sometimes I feel that this world is exceedingly difficult. I find it interesting that when a person feels lonely, they only want to hang out with those certain people, so even though other friends might be willing, you end up feeling lonely because the ones you do want to hang out ( Read more... )

And as my life rolls on I see. Miles and I are doing okay as friends, I still obviously want to be his girlfriend, I have no denying it, but I do respect his wishes. All I want is for him to be happy, so whatever he decides makes him truely happy, I will respect. I may not like it, but I will let him be. I just hope what makes him truely happy is ( Read more... )

I am very tired. I only got about three hours of sleep last night. No this entry isn't ment to make anyone feel guilty. I am mostly numb, in denile, angry, laughing, in denile again... just depends on the moment. For those of you who don't know, Miles and I broke up last night. It may not be forever, but then I think that may be how any ( Read more... )