Discipline...Do You Have It In You
Dearest Journal dear,
Ugggh. So I woke up CRAVING sweets and I had brownies, cake and lasagna. Like wtf. And thennn I said, if I eat this--I cant eat nuthen else today. Then like around 6pm I had another brownie and two sweet granola bars. My body is liek CRAVING sweets like a drug!!! I had to drink like 3 cups of green tea and 5 cups of water, and I'm hittin the gym soon. And more tea/water tonight. Then tomorrow I officially start my 2 week sof like barely eatin..Just to keep me alive a couple cut fruit like we have a lot of apples and tangerines and sum veggies and ton sof water is all I need. Anything more and I'll DEFINITELY gain from this horrendous weekend. Everyone has weekend like this once in a while, so the best thing to do is take responsibility for it and just do what you have to do to fix it. In my case, due to the amount of fat-gaining things like white-sugar infested vanilla and cheesecakes and fatty fried carbs---It's an extreme such as eating like one fruit a day. I have to do it. I f***ed up, so I pay the consequences. It WILL be a huge difficult challenge but I mustn't give in unless I want thunder thighs and jiggle fat arms for ever. If I ever want my 26 size Guess jeans to be loose on me......I must be strong. I will go look @ some thinspo now. Time for discpline liek I've never seen it.