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ugh im so glad its a new day. honestly. i feel cool and calm and collected (like the eye of the storm...?)
i am honestly so sick of my binging ways, like im tired of doing this all the time.
i had a lil bit of Jello (lemon +cherry yummers!) and im really full cuz of the lax's i took last nite.
i need to just drink tons of water and I'm cravin SuperNibs ( a cherry licorice candy) which Im addicted too.
you can honestly tell im really sick and tired of the way i've been dietting for the last few months. i am tired of little "tricks" and this and that.
i am down to my last 3 packets of Jello. Gotta pick more up, and a 1.5 L of water. What else is super healthy to eat? I was goin to get canned beets, frozen peas, tuna, almond tofu and yogurt too and live on that for a week. Maybe chicken too. Just one packet for the week. Thats pretty good right? You cant gain weight on that. Im not eating anything other than Jello (and if I buy the Supernibs, then that too). I feel like I've overcome something HUGE though. I mean , uncontrolled eating is really scary esp. when you have a huge fear of gaining weight + fat. Hopefully it doesnt show much until I lose it. It's an obsession now, its constantly on my mind. And I guess it will be until I lose a lot of it, then I can turn my attention to other stuff. But as long as I don't eat anything else today, I don't need to think about it.
Ganing weight isn't a serious deal for everyone but its crucial to me...
i am honestly so sick of my binging ways, like im tired of doing this all the time.
i had a lil bit of Jello (lemon +cherry yummers!) and im really full cuz of the lax's i took last nite.
i need to just drink tons of water and I'm cravin SuperNibs ( a cherry licorice candy) which Im addicted too.
you can honestly tell im really sick and tired of the way i've been dietting for the last few months. i am tired of little "tricks" and this and that.
i am down to my last 3 packets of Jello. Gotta pick more up, and a 1.5 L of water. What else is super healthy to eat? I was goin to get canned beets, frozen peas, tuna, almond tofu and yogurt too and live on that for a week. Maybe chicken too. Just one packet for the week. Thats pretty good right? You cant gain weight on that. Im not eating anything other than Jello (and if I buy the Supernibs, then that too). I feel like I've overcome something HUGE though. I mean , uncontrolled eating is really scary esp. when you have a huge fear of gaining weight + fat. Hopefully it doesnt show much until I lose it. It's an obsession now, its constantly on my mind. And I guess it will be until I lose a lot of it, then I can turn my attention to other stuff. But as long as I don't eat anything else today, I don't need to think about it.
Ganing weight isn't a serious deal for everyone but its crucial to me...