Some borderline ridiculous Ryan/Jon notfic (with bonus soundtrack!)
This morning on the ride to school I was listening to John Mayer (I KNOW, shut up)
Basically this whole song is a Jon/Ryan fic
I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I'm not sure that I really ever could
Hold on to your hotel key in your bedroom neighborhood
Me sleep-walkin in Hollywood
I'm gonna steer clear
I'd burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if I saw you
I'd die if i didn't see you there
So i don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
So in my head it goes like this:
Ryan and Jon are fighting (for the millionth time, obvs) which basically boils down to Ryan being a giant failboat who won't let Jon in because he's basically fucked up everyone and everything he's ever loved, and so Jon leaves, and each state he flies over back to Chicago feels more and more like defeat, and it hurts, and Tom has to basically turning back around and getting on a plane to LA the second he lands.
And so Jon mopes around and is all ~emotional and crap, and eventually he starts playing guitar again and then eventually recording (basically read Recognize Myself, except make Jon cis) and Max and Ryan J are like "JUST CALL HIM, DUMBASS. THERE ARE MORE STRAIGHTFORWARD WAYS OF APOLOGIZING THAN MAKING A RECORD"
MEANWHILE IN LA:
Ryan is the mopiest boy, because he fucked up YET AGAIN, HOW IS THIS EVEN HIS LIFE?
Here I am just half a man standing alone
Feeling like I lost my only chance
At happiness when I let you go
I don't want to be alone thinkin' bout you girl
I got nothin' left to hold in this lonely world
And Spencer is like "You shit, just go apologize. You can't just let him go"
It takes frickin forever, but Ryan hears Jon's songs, and that's what pushes him to fly to Chicago, and he's standing on Jon's porch when the door opens and Jon's just staring at him, and Ryan gives him this sheepish little smile, surrounded by his ridiculous luggage (which means he's hoping to stay for a while) and Ryan figures he should start talking when Jon hauls him and his ridiculous luggage inside and pushes him up against the door and kisses him
[and then porn happens, but that will be done when I am NOT IN THE LIBRARY]
And they're crumpled in a pile on the floor of the entryway and when he gets his breath back Ryan starts to open his mouth and Jon is like "NO. We can talk and scream at each other later, just let me have this right now" and so Ryan shuts up, and they know it's not what they should be doing, that they need to work this shit out, but they have time for them.
And they do, eventually, even manage to do most of it like civilized humans, and things aren't happily ever after yet, but they're getting there.
Some other songs that fit into this 'verse:
Only A Fool - The Black Crowes
Your words buzz around my head
You make me feel warm again
You are my lover, my song, my best friend
I don't want this to ever end
Only a fool would let you go
Only a fool and I should know
Only a fool would let you go
I need you so baby please don't go
Side of Me
You'll Be Fine
Here For You
-Jon Walker
Walking Away - Jonny Lang
There's just one more thing
That I want to say
I truly loved you
But now I'm walking away
I put no one above you
That's why I'm walking away
And there's a thousand more, but those are the first things that come up in my mind.
Thoughts?
Click to viewBasically this whole song is a Jon/Ryan fic
I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I'm not sure that I really ever could
Hold on to your hotel key in your bedroom neighborhood
Me sleep-walkin in Hollywood
I'm gonna steer clear
I'd burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if I saw you
I'd die if i didn't see you there
So i don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
So in my head it goes like this:
Ryan and Jon are fighting (for the millionth time, obvs) which basically boils down to Ryan being a giant failboat who won't let Jon in because he's basically fucked up everyone and everything he's ever loved, and so Jon leaves, and each state he flies over back to Chicago feels more and more like defeat, and it hurts, and Tom has to basically turning back around and getting on a plane to LA the second he lands.
And so Jon mopes around and is all ~emotional and crap, and eventually he starts playing guitar again and then eventually recording (basically read Recognize Myself, except make Jon cis) and Max and Ryan J are like "JUST CALL HIM, DUMBASS. THERE ARE MORE STRAIGHTFORWARD WAYS OF APOLOGIZING THAN MAKING A RECORD"
MEANWHILE IN LA:
Ryan is the mopiest boy, because he fucked up YET AGAIN, HOW IS THIS EVEN HIS LIFE?
Here I am just half a man standing alone
Feeling like I lost my only chance
At happiness when I let you go
I don't want to be alone thinkin' bout you girl
I got nothin' left to hold in this lonely world
And Spencer is like "You shit, just go apologize. You can't just let him go"
It takes frickin forever, but Ryan hears Jon's songs, and that's what pushes him to fly to Chicago, and he's standing on Jon's porch when the door opens and Jon's just staring at him, and Ryan gives him this sheepish little smile, surrounded by his ridiculous luggage (which means he's hoping to stay for a while) and Ryan figures he should start talking when Jon hauls him and his ridiculous luggage inside and pushes him up against the door and kisses him
[and then porn happens, but that will be done when I am NOT IN THE LIBRARY]
And they're crumpled in a pile on the floor of the entryway and when he gets his breath back Ryan starts to open his mouth and Jon is like "NO. We can talk and scream at each other later, just let me have this right now" and so Ryan shuts up, and they know it's not what they should be doing, that they need to work this shit out, but they have time for them.
And they do, eventually, even manage to do most of it like civilized humans, and things aren't happily ever after yet, but they're getting there.
Some other songs that fit into this 'verse:
Only A Fool - The Black Crowes
Your words buzz around my head
You make me feel warm again
You are my lover, my song, my best friend
I don't want this to ever end
Only a fool would let you go
Only a fool and I should know
Only a fool would let you go
I need you so baby please don't go
Side of Me
You'll Be Fine
Here For You
-Jon Walker
Walking Away - Jonny Lang
There's just one more thing
That I want to say
I truly loved you
But now I'm walking away
I put no one above you
That's why I'm walking away
And there's a thousand more, but those are the first things that come up in my mind.
Thoughts?