I wonder...
Well...I'm sitting here at work.
I have accomplished a lot in the last two days. Taking into consideration that I was sick the entire time. I went to work, I went shopping, I figured things out with my room mate (and new friend), and now I finished a very good book. Yay!
Things seem to be falling into place a lot easier than I expected them to. I don't know how things are going to turn out in the long run...if they are all going to work out for the better, but what I do know, is that things are coming together quite nicely right NOW.
I guess that is what matters the most. That our lives are what we want them to be right at that moment.
But then you can't help but think that if you had done something differently things might be better right now, or I may have felt this happy a lot sooner, or without as much work.
But I guess the work that we put into our happyness is what makes it so sweet.
I don't know. I don't seem to know a lot right now I guess.
But what I do know is that I am going to my counselor for the first time today. Maybe when I leave there I will have some more insight for you about this wonderful and blind life that we all seem to be leading.
But, thinking about it, haven't I said before that time spent thinking about the future and the past is time wasted? I think that I have.
...and it is SO true. We can't change our past unless someone comes up with a way to go back in time and fix it all. and right now at this point in time it doesn't seem like that is going to happen. And we can't really think about our future because we don't really know what is going to come.
We make decisions based on what we like to think our future may become, but how do we really know what is going to happen.
We say that we are going to college to get a better education in the field that we are going to persue, but how do we know that we will end up graduation with the same major that we started with? How do we know that we will be sucessful in that field at all? and most importantly, how do we know that we will be happy with the outcome?
The answer is simple. We don't.
The decisions that we make today ARE going to shape our future, but we don't exactly know how.
I don't know that I am going to be a music teacher, I don't know if I will ever get the chance to be on Broadway. But I am going to try to get there.
I don't know that I am going to get married have two children and live in a loft in New York city, but that is what I dream my future is going to hold for me.
We just never know what is going to happen.
Our lives may take a turn for the better tomorrow morning, or next week, it may make a turn for the worst.
We just don't know.
WOW...I really got into something that I didn't think I was.
...but I guess that is what my future had in store for me.
BUT, if I happened to delete it all now, would I be changing the past or the future? hhmmm...
I have accomplished a lot in the last two days. Taking into consideration that I was sick the entire time. I went to work, I went shopping, I figured things out with my room mate (and new friend), and now I finished a very good book. Yay!
Things seem to be falling into place a lot easier than I expected them to. I don't know how things are going to turn out in the long run...if they are all going to work out for the better, but what I do know, is that things are coming together quite nicely right NOW.
I guess that is what matters the most. That our lives are what we want them to be right at that moment.
But then you can't help but think that if you had done something differently things might be better right now, or I may have felt this happy a lot sooner, or without as much work.
But I guess the work that we put into our happyness is what makes it so sweet.
I don't know. I don't seem to know a lot right now I guess.
But what I do know is that I am going to my counselor for the first time today. Maybe when I leave there I will have some more insight for you about this wonderful and blind life that we all seem to be leading.
But, thinking about it, haven't I said before that time spent thinking about the future and the past is time wasted? I think that I have.
...and it is SO true. We can't change our past unless someone comes up with a way to go back in time and fix it all. and right now at this point in time it doesn't seem like that is going to happen. And we can't really think about our future because we don't really know what is going to come.
We make decisions based on what we like to think our future may become, but how do we really know what is going to happen.
We say that we are going to college to get a better education in the field that we are going to persue, but how do we know that we will end up graduation with the same major that we started with? How do we know that we will be sucessful in that field at all? and most importantly, how do we know that we will be happy with the outcome?
The answer is simple. We don't.
The decisions that we make today ARE going to shape our future, but we don't exactly know how.
I don't know that I am going to be a music teacher, I don't know if I will ever get the chance to be on Broadway. But I am going to try to get there.
I don't know that I am going to get married have two children and live in a loft in New York city, but that is what I dream my future is going to hold for me.
We just never know what is going to happen.
Our lives may take a turn for the better tomorrow morning, or next week, it may make a turn for the worst.
We just don't know.
WOW...I really got into something that I didn't think I was.
...but I guess that is what my future had in store for me.
BUT, if I happened to delete it all now, would I be changing the past or the future? hhmmm...