Sep 05, 2005 00:58
I'm feel confused but I know exactly what I'm doing.
I feel helpless but I know that I'm more in control now than ever.
I've never been so weighed down by freedom in my life.
I just need to be alone right now and figure things out.
It FEELS like shit...
but I know that it IS the right thing.
Why? That is the question that I ask.
It looks like I can't do anything until I finally answer myself.
I need to stop asking that and start understanding what I must do with my life. Stop thinking and start acting.
Don't take this update as a cry for help anyone!
My life feels crazy right now but I no at least that I am doing the right thing.
Life, lead me where you will.
Christ, guide me to your perfect plan.
It's in your hands now Jesus.
Love,
Johnny