for your sake if nothing else....REALLOVES /andy miriam dr moorehead /dr shaw warner etc etcconsult
SEEMS things are and/or they can really only get worse and i can only presume TO MYSELF that it was a very recless abuse /missuse of medication bit i was slaughtered on saturday afternoon and if memory serves me correctly as i was so so coked up and with a 6 pints of snake bite and a pint of baileys then john and rachael came back for a smoke and further linage -i remember getting lot of shit off my chest esspecially in regards to my present probs re: B&H SITUATION ...BUT WTF HAPPENED AFTER TO TRIGGER THE REST OF TRAIN OF THOUGHT ETC ...I DUNNO -I MUST HAVE GOT EMOTIONAL AND I DO AT SOMEPOINT REMEMBER CRYING AS I AM SURE MUMS PASSING AND THE WHOLE BREAKDOWN OF THE FAMILY UNIT AND ITS ENSUING AFTERMATH ....
REMEMBER MEASURING OUT THE METHADONE AND SEEING WHAT WAS SPARE BUT STILL ENUFF TO GO ON AND HOARD THE 1000ML BUT AFTER A WHILE AND COME TO THINK THE AMOUNT OF METHADONE MUST HAVE BEEN 300+ WITH AT LEAST 15 75-ML NITRAZIPAM AND FUCK KNOWS HOW MANY DOTHS ...
YESTERDAY (SUNDAY) I WAS JUST IN/OUT OF CONCIOUSNESS ALL DAY AND NIGHT TILL NOW ....MY PISS IS BLACK MY KIDNEYS MUST BE SERIOUSLY DAMAGED IF ONLY TEMPORY IT` WAS A BLUR STILL IS !!! I KEEP FALLING SIDEWAYS OF THIS CHAIR SO IAM STILL GOING UNDER *SIGH* IT CAN`T HAVE BEEN AN ATTEMPT BUT MORELIKE A "FUCK IT IF I DIE I DIE -NICKS HERE -SO MUST GO AT LEAST SOMEONE TO TALK SHIT OUT TOO AND TRY SORT THIS FUCKIN HEAD OF MINE OUT.
REMEMBER MEASURING OUT THE METHADONE AND SEEING WHAT WAS SPARE BUT STILL ENUFF TO GO ON AND HOARD THE 1000ML BUT AFTER A WHILE AND COME TO THINK THE AMOUNT OF METHADONE MUST HAVE BEEN 300+ WITH AT LEAST 15 75-ML NITRAZIPAM AND FUCK KNOWS HOW MANY DOTHS ...
YESTERDAY (SUNDAY) I WAS JUST IN/OUT OF CONCIOUSNESS ALL DAY AND NIGHT TILL NOW ....MY PISS IS BLACK MY KIDNEYS MUST BE SERIOUSLY DAMAGED IF ONLY TEMPORY IT` WAS A BLUR STILL IS !!! I KEEP FALLING SIDEWAYS OF THIS CHAIR SO IAM STILL GOING UNDER *SIGH* IT CAN`T HAVE BEEN AN ATTEMPT BUT MORELIKE A "FUCK IT IF I DIE I DIE -NICKS HERE -SO MUST GO AT LEAST SOMEONE TO TALK SHIT OUT TOO AND TRY SORT THIS FUCKIN HEAD OF MINE OUT.