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so fucking stuff
my back/neck hurts... i want to be rubbed
i'm congested
thanks doug
so for those of you who don't know wtf is going on in my life at the present, lemme paint a lil picture for you...
Michael and i are apart. (wtf? i know) i am not ready for the "forever" commitment yet.
Dev~0 introduced me to a couple: Doug and diana, about 2 months ago.
they are cool people.
lately i've been trying to figure out how to hang out with michael as a friend and not avoid him or be with him all the time. we're going to see Grease tonight. that'll be cool. i'm hoping to hang out with him for more than just the play. he got me a pumpkin roll? i'ma have to figure out what that is... he says its good, so :)
i do love him.
i'm not ready for forever yet though. and some things have to be straightened out before i'd go back to a relationship with him. i feel like more his therapist. it seems a little like he (not knowing he is doing it, and not doing it intentionally) uses his depression to get me to be with him. but when i was talking with him on the phone yesterday, i got the message that he is trying not to do that specifically. i'm glad.
i'm thinking about moving out of my house.
Doug and dianna invited me to live with them. we have the money figured out. i got Doug a membership, at the gym i work at, for pretty cheap and i drive them around when their car doesn't work or when they both need to go different places (only one working vehicle for them right now... and Doug has a suspended licence because of a cop that got laid by his ex wife). and because Doug makes enough to support people, he doesn't need or want me to give him my money. it works for me, but my mom is suspicious "people aren't that nice". she believes they have some kind of alterior motive, but then she doesn't know about the relationship we kinda have.
i'm at work right now. this fucking keyboard is so disgusting. i have a dusting problem. where there is dust, i attack. diana wont let me dust their house though, so i have to get my fix while i'm at work. :D hahahaha
my diet has been not the best lately. yesterday i had half a waffle, cheese bread from penn station, a piece of chocolate caramel cake, small milk, water, 20oz mountain dew. i really should be eating better. i should get those packs of fruit they sell at the grocery store. eat those.
my period is fucky. it started a few days ago and i've had cramps on the outsides of my abs... pretend the lines are cramps and the dots are my abs...
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and i've not been very hungry at all lately. i've been eating half a day's food for a whole day of stuff... i usually eat more than normal when i'm ragging. wierd period... but maybe i'll get lucky and it will be short instead of long... its been opposite with the other stuff, so it could happen. :D
not that any of you wanted to read that. so anyways.
i'm tired.
at work right now.
Michael is on his way here to hang out or whatever.
i should really be doing homework.
towels need folded...
mmmm bye.
my back/neck hurts... i want to be rubbed
i'm congested
thanks doug
so for those of you who don't know wtf is going on in my life at the present, lemme paint a lil picture for you...
Michael and i are apart. (wtf? i know) i am not ready for the "forever" commitment yet.
Dev~0 introduced me to a couple: Doug and diana, about 2 months ago.
they are cool people.
lately i've been trying to figure out how to hang out with michael as a friend and not avoid him or be with him all the time. we're going to see Grease tonight. that'll be cool. i'm hoping to hang out with him for more than just the play. he got me a pumpkin roll? i'ma have to figure out what that is... he says its good, so :)
i do love him.
i'm not ready for forever yet though. and some things have to be straightened out before i'd go back to a relationship with him. i feel like more his therapist. it seems a little like he (not knowing he is doing it, and not doing it intentionally) uses his depression to get me to be with him. but when i was talking with him on the phone yesterday, i got the message that he is trying not to do that specifically. i'm glad.
i'm thinking about moving out of my house.
Doug and dianna invited me to live with them. we have the money figured out. i got Doug a membership, at the gym i work at, for pretty cheap and i drive them around when their car doesn't work or when they both need to go different places (only one working vehicle for them right now... and Doug has a suspended licence because of a cop that got laid by his ex wife). and because Doug makes enough to support people, he doesn't need or want me to give him my money. it works for me, but my mom is suspicious "people aren't that nice". she believes they have some kind of alterior motive, but then she doesn't know about the relationship we kinda have.
i'm at work right now. this fucking keyboard is so disgusting. i have a dusting problem. where there is dust, i attack. diana wont let me dust their house though, so i have to get my fix while i'm at work. :D hahahaha
my diet has been not the best lately. yesterday i had half a waffle, cheese bread from penn station, a piece of chocolate caramel cake, small milk, water, 20oz mountain dew. i really should be eating better. i should get those packs of fruit they sell at the grocery store. eat those.
my period is fucky. it started a few days ago and i've had cramps on the outsides of my abs... pretend the lines are cramps and the dots are my abs...
___
|..|
|..|
and i've not been very hungry at all lately. i've been eating half a day's food for a whole day of stuff... i usually eat more than normal when i'm ragging. wierd period... but maybe i'll get lucky and it will be short instead of long... its been opposite with the other stuff, so it could happen. :D
not that any of you wanted to read that. so anyways.
i'm tired.
at work right now.
Michael is on his way here to hang out or whatever.
i should really be doing homework.
towels need folded...
mmmm bye.