still unbelievably sad...
ok.. uh today made me feel insanely great, and it left me thinking there's some hope for me in this relentless world, anyway. Maybe... lol. Maybe I should stop thinking my thoughts and dwelling on them, cause they are what cause me to think of such evil things to do. No one will ever understand why I did what I did, not that they could, cause I won't tell them.. and the person i DID tell.. well, he understood pretty well, and he seemed to care, and maybe I live too much in my own thoughts to see that people really doooooo care. I love this kid. and hopefully we'll always be friends. (like i've said for countless other people- yet this one's been around for 3 years, and counting)