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well.. clay and i kinda broke it off--for a day. i couldn't stand to be away from him and i know it killed him to be away from me and our daughter. i think being away for that day made me realize that i really love that kid. (clayton, i mean). and, our wedding is approaching very fast! it's only 3 1/2 months away, if that. i think i'm going to just have a continuous nervous breakdown from now until then, because i am so stressed out all of a sudden. and yes, this wedding may not be exactly what i want right now, but i know that i want to marry clayton, and i dont want to screw anything up more than i already have. i'm so excited! i'm going to pick out a dress on saturday. hopefully i'm skinny by my wedding day! damn.. wedding day... i'm sooooooooooooooooo nervous!!