life.... well.. yeah
so i just watched the butterfly effect-- awesome movie!! i really thought that it would suck, but it was pretty cool.
the only thing that sucks about me watching the movie is that i didn't get what i wanted to accomplished tonight. i've made a pretty fairly tough decision, but it was delayed because of the movie and i was in a good mood.. i'm so nervous about it, too. i'm so afraid that i've made the wrong choice and i'm going to be miserable for the rest of my life. (i'm not actually going to put my decision in words because i'm afraid someone will read this... lol.. isn't that the point of a LIVEjournal? lol..) god, and it's so hard.. i cry about every time i think about it.. i think i smoked like six cigarettes on the way to school, and it's only a half hour drive.. (same with the ride home..) why does life have to be this complecated?? i wish there was something out there that could just tell me exactly where to go, what to do, who to like, who not to, etc. that would be so much easier! i guess, though, that if the bad parts werent as bad, the good parts wouldnt be as good either. i don't know.. *sigh*
gosh i hope super-cool-megan is okay.. she wasn't at school today... :-(
the only thing that sucks about me watching the movie is that i didn't get what i wanted to accomplished tonight. i've made a pretty fairly tough decision, but it was delayed because of the movie and i was in a good mood.. i'm so nervous about it, too. i'm so afraid that i've made the wrong choice and i'm going to be miserable for the rest of my life. (i'm not actually going to put my decision in words because i'm afraid someone will read this... lol.. isn't that the point of a LIVEjournal? lol..) god, and it's so hard.. i cry about every time i think about it.. i think i smoked like six cigarettes on the way to school, and it's only a half hour drive.. (same with the ride home..) why does life have to be this complecated?? i wish there was something out there that could just tell me exactly where to go, what to do, who to like, who not to, etc. that would be so much easier! i guess, though, that if the bad parts werent as bad, the good parts wouldnt be as good either. i don't know.. *sigh*
gosh i hope super-cool-megan is okay.. she wasn't at school today... :-(