Attempt
So here comes another inherently incomplete train of thought called my day. My first impulse getting home was to zone out and play Warcraft III, but I'm going to do this instead, because I think it's good for me.
Called my sponsor on the way home and talked about some recovery shit. Some third step shit. Relayed the main gist of my conversation with Stan last night. He pointed out that rather than being absolutely bat fucking crazy breaking up with a girl, I was actually sane and accepting of the situation. I'm way different then I used to be, and I think part of that is my higher power looking out for me. I think that turning my life and will over to the God of my understanding has made a difference. I deserve to be happy.
I'm not really taking things personally these days. I guess I didn't realize before that the people around me and their moods and interactions aren't always caused by me personally. I think part of that is me just maturing, but I wouldn't be on this path without getting clean. It's beyond that though. It's not just me getting clean. My sobriety only showed me the door to becoming a more enlightened mature spiritual person, and I've been slowly walking through it though it feels like leaps and bounds, I know there is so much more to come.
I also talked to him about... what did I talk to him about? There goes my train of thought.
Whatever.
I'm going to play video games and go to bed.
Do something about it! lol
Called my sponsor on the way home and talked about some recovery shit. Some third step shit. Relayed the main gist of my conversation with Stan last night. He pointed out that rather than being absolutely bat fucking crazy breaking up with a girl, I was actually sane and accepting of the situation. I'm way different then I used to be, and I think part of that is my higher power looking out for me. I think that turning my life and will over to the God of my understanding has made a difference. I deserve to be happy.
I'm not really taking things personally these days. I guess I didn't realize before that the people around me and their moods and interactions aren't always caused by me personally. I think part of that is me just maturing, but I wouldn't be on this path without getting clean. It's beyond that though. It's not just me getting clean. My sobriety only showed me the door to becoming a more enlightened mature spiritual person, and I've been slowly walking through it though it feels like leaps and bounds, I know there is so much more to come.
I also talked to him about... what did I talk to him about? There goes my train of thought.
Whatever.
I'm going to play video games and go to bed.
Do something about it! lol