post traumatic mental disorder.......
which has nothing to do with what i am about to talk about... over the past several years i have found myself looking for that certain, but yet oh so uncertain thing that everyone longs for in their adult life. the spark of hope within ones true being...... at heart i would say that i am at most slowly coming to fruition for the whole subject of my life and how i perceive it to be panning out.... although in hind sight i realize that there are multiple approaches to this common problem that people face daily. the start of the solution for me was to take responsiblity for all that i have made for myself either negative or positive and recalling the experience that i gained from that particular moment. i guess for me the inner sanctum that is my mind has forged a new way of thinking involving every facet of my life... socially morally and spiritually.