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man i have just been thinkin that i dont need a girl friend right now i am strugglin enough as it is on my own. i think i screwed something up again by saying something and then thinkin about it. i feel like i have just have too collect all my thoughts and prepare for tommorrow. and all the time i spend wanting something i wont have just keeps burning all my energy. that and so many other things that flood my concious and sub concious or however you spell it. i am bad with spelling. i am a fool sometimes. i also like to do stuff unconventionally. man i wonder sometimes if i where to do some things like other people how they would be taken. i want to let go take a break and do the vacation thing soon if i save money i am sometime soon. and some people just make me want to shoot myself in the dick and then in the face. love