Just make it to the weekend...

[bob_is_god]

I feel down.

People would say that I shouldn't.

I feel pointless again.

I am not working. I am not planning my gap year. I am wasting time. I am wasting a part of my life I will never be able to live again.

Give me a reason to be...Today I met Anna and gave Charlie his friendship bracelet. I then bought things I needed and felt guilty for

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[xbeyond_fatex]

A reason to be. Look at the beauty that surrounds you, the miracle of every day life. It truely is amazing and beautiful, I know how much you appreciate this, just keep admiring this.

I was thinking about this, as well as many other things tonight, and it's a shame that many other people don't realise the beauty of living.

[chazzzchessman]

To be honest, I don't get that. The beauty of everyday living? You can just as easily look around and see the terrible things; it tends to depend in what mood you wake up in more than it does the actual world itself. I could wake up and spend an hour looking at the bracelet Hazel made me, and playing with Tori, and be all sweetness and light, or I could turn on the news and depress myself for the day. It's your outlook on life that matters, not life itself.

{stretches} It's been a long time since I've disagreed with you on anything Rob - it almost makes me feel nostalgic. :-)

[bob_is_god]

Thankyou both. I still feel kind of low, although I looked through the jobs section in the Argos and tomorrow I am going to phone some people and try for interviews.

[chazzzchessman]

I love going through the Jobs section...

"Oooh, maybe I could be a book-keeper. Then again, chef looks quite tempting. Or a croupier! How about a croupier? I bet dealing cards for eight hours at a time would be fun..."

My interest piques and falls in the space of about five seconds - it's like flashing a mirror into a goldfish's eyes.

[chazzzchessman]

A reason to be? A reason to be??!? You made me a friendship bracelet! I was so pleased, my dad called me a girl and I barely registered it!

Marginally more seriously, finding intellectually stimulating work is a good idea. Remember though, one of the main points of a gap year is to enjoy yourself, not just to earn money or otherwise prepare for uni...

[bob_is_god]

The way you reacted to that friendship bracelet was so beautiful. It made me so happy to have given it to you. You were as amazed by it as I was when I realised I could make it!

[chazzzchessman]

{Adjusts bracelet on arm}

[bob_is_god]

*beams*

hugs

[chaos_cloud24]

A reason to be....hmm nuter party with malibu jelly? Iv got paid now and i owe u guys for last time. My house isnt exactly easy to get to though. Anywayz let me kno if u feel like it.

As for the work thing....hmm i think the chances of intellectually stimulating are pretty low but u might as well look. Dont feel too guilty for spending money -everybody needs a treat (i need a treat most days iv decided XD)

I miss u and everyone else :(

Re: hugs

[bob_is_god]

I bought a corset today. It was in a charity shop... and brand new! It still had the original tags on and everything!

I can't wait for our next time, and thankyou for reminding me to make Jelly.