I just can't get ahead...
So money problems have been plaguing me lately. There has been some bad weather here and so schools have been closed and therefore my work has been closed also so I don't get paid. Last week I worked about half of my normal hours. I'm in a lot of credit card debt and I don't make enough money with my two jobs. I have a $1,000 student loan payment due in June and I can't even get by every month so putting away money for that payment has become almost impossible. I looked into food stamps but I make too much money though all my money goes to rent, utilities and credit card bills. Christmas is just a few days away and I will be spending it in Oregon without my family for the first time. I dunno it's just strange and sad. Mitch is here but he is Jewish and so he doesn't really do the Christmas thing. I found a church to go to for Christmas Eve service alone. My brother tried to get me home but it was too expensive and too last minute. I am just trying to enjoy life but I hate that money is ruining it. Really my biggest stress everyday is money. I love Oregon, I love my jobs and my daily life, I just wish I made more money. So now I spend a lot of time trying to find a new job in the worst economy where no one is getting jobs. Do I go back to school and put myself farther into financial debt in the hopes of getting a better job with a masters, or do I just keep searching and praying for something to come along. So many unanswered questions and it scares me to think of where I will be in 5 years. To make things more stressful Mitch wants to move. I have really fallen for him and so the idea of him leaving scares me a bit. He has a job offer in LA, not sure if he will go but it's an idea. I know he needs to move so he can get a better job and improve his life but at the same time we both don't want to give up on our relationship. We haven't been dating very long but it's obvious that there is something about our relationship that is worth putting some time into. We want to see where this relationship could go but moving wouldn't allow that. For me moving again is just not something I think I can do. I don't have the money and unless I have a job lined up I can't go through the whole job search thing right now. Well it's late I have work at 7