this sucks...... ahh...ugh..
so today was going okay.. got up and went to school.. fought with andy.. ya know the norm... then i had to go to setup for the ice cream social.. Luke and i laughed for like an hour.. it was great.. lol. then i came home and mom and i fought and so that ruined the night.. so i was like screw it and i went to bed and i woke up and the first thing i hear from andy is that derek knows about my "obsession" with him... and that he knows about my wallpaper on my computer... which is a pic of him.. cuz it's a good one and i was SOOO angry.. i was sooo upset that i was shaking and crying.. and it may not seem like a big deal... but it does... it is a HUGE deal... :( and THEN i get into the car to go to the ice cream social.. after i've been crying and sleeping... and i look like crap.. andy goes and btw derek is going to the ice cream social... i almost broke down... i care for him sooo much... and to find out that i didn't even get to tell him.... never the less... im sure he doesn't like me..a nd he thinks im some kind of stalker and stuff.. it sucks soooooooo bad.. i like and care about him sooo much it isn't even funny.. at all.. and to make matters worse... i work with him on sunday... maybe i'll just call in sick.. or something like that... ugh.. this sucks... i feel like dieing...