Frazzled

[bmwbabe]

Argh. I am so very happy that after today we have a holiday weekend. I am soo stressed/depressed. There is just way too much crap running through my lil noggin right now and I think it is either going to explode/implode/crumble/die. My grad classes are NOT going to be easy. And I expected that, but they are going to be the icing on the cake of stress. I just wish I could get things sorted out with John, b/c that bugs the hell outta me at the moment. Maybe I’ll actually see him at some point this weekend, who knows!?!? And, although the lawsuit crap was supposedly settled last week, the paperwork isn’t finished and signed, and the company has little moohla. I have been nonchalantly looking for a new job, but now I believe I need to try to put forth more effort in my searches. Things just don’t seem to be settling down here at all, and it looks like nothing but rough waters ahead. While I don’t expect magic, job stability would be nice, especially since grad school is not cheap. If it weren’t for health insurance, I’d so just go back to school full-time. *sigh* Although the effects of Katrina have been shown on TV continuously, and she caused me to lose power for a day, seeing all the devastation is also beginning to just make me completely sad. This morning they were showing elderly patients from the hospitals down there just laying on cots at the airport. They were in the chairs, on the floor, on the conveyor belts, and even left on the asphalt while being transported to other hospitals! It was so sad. I’ve always had a soft spot for geriatrics. Older people have lived their lives and have some of the most amazing stories. They too often get abused and mistreated in nursing homes, and don’t get the love and affection they need from families. Just seeing them in the airport made me cry. To top it off, I finally was able to get a hold of one of my college buddies who is from the coast. We used to go visit her family all the time on the coast, etc. Her sister’s family and her brother both lost their houses to flooding. Her parent’s house is still technically above the water, but has a lot of damage, especially on the roof. But it is believed to be completely repairable. She has all of them at her house. Bless her. She was telling me about all these places that we went to in N.O, and Biloxi and everywhere in between that are completely gone. I know I’m going to miss them…..

I need a tranquilizer. Heavy duty, and made for a horse. That should last for a day or two…..