The End
I suspect that my recent lack of LiveJournal activity is likely to continue for a while now, so rather than simply stop awkwardly, I thought I'd punctuate my diary with a post.
I started this journal mainly as an experiment and an outlet for my musings as I tried to "find myself". Well, to a large extent I have done that:
I am B.Minstrel. I am polyamorous and I think I understand fairly well now what that currently means to me. I am in my early to mid thirties, have a wife, a girlfriend and two close friendships (the nature of which might cause Normal monogamous people to raise an eyebrow). Beyond that I am straight (and somewhat disapproving of myself for that), open-minded, geeky and creative.
I care and worry too much about the people close to me, and about my own actions and motivations. I hold myself to high standards in everything I do and give myself a hard time when I fail to reach my own expectations, yet occasionally I let myself get away with murder while I'm not looking.
I think a lot about ethics and motivations rather than taking society's views as read, and I write too verbosely about my observations in a self-absorbed, navel-gazey and generally trying-too-hard sort of manner. I overdo the analogies and overthink my conclusions.
I could go on, but I'd probably be repeating myself (another trait I'm prone to) and what I've written before. The bottom line is this: I feel stable where I am on my journey. I don't feel the need to deliberately explore any further at the moment. I am where I am, I am who I am, and I am more inclined to concentrate on making that work than trying to see what else might be out (or in) there.
So for the forseeable future I expect to lurk, comment and post the occasional short "A funny thing happened..." or a response to a Writers' Block, but beyond that it seems the words have stopped for now.
There will be other words some other day, but that's the story of my life.
I started this journal mainly as an experiment and an outlet for my musings as I tried to "find myself". Well, to a large extent I have done that:
I am B.Minstrel. I am polyamorous and I think I understand fairly well now what that currently means to me. I am in my early to mid thirties, have a wife, a girlfriend and two close friendships (the nature of which might cause Normal monogamous people to raise an eyebrow). Beyond that I am straight (and somewhat disapproving of myself for that), open-minded, geeky and creative.
I care and worry too much about the people close to me, and about my own actions and motivations. I hold myself to high standards in everything I do and give myself a hard time when I fail to reach my own expectations, yet occasionally I let myself get away with murder while I'm not looking.
I think a lot about ethics and motivations rather than taking society's views as read, and I write too verbosely about my observations in a self-absorbed, navel-gazey and generally trying-too-hard sort of manner. I overdo the analogies and overthink my conclusions.
I could go on, but I'd probably be repeating myself (another trait I'm prone to) and what I've written before. The bottom line is this: I feel stable where I am on my journey. I don't feel the need to deliberately explore any further at the moment. I am where I am, I am who I am, and I am more inclined to concentrate on making that work than trying to see what else might be out (or in) there.
So for the forseeable future I expect to lurk, comment and post the occasional short "A funny thing happened..." or a response to a Writers' Block, but beyond that it seems the words have stopped for now.
There will be other words some other day, but that's the story of my life.