`The day Marie Antoinette gave the ultimate head...
So.
I got DSL back. That means I'll be online a bit more now. I'll revamp my myspace quite soon. I gotta do a few updates to my system though. I need all my programs back. Photoshop, Trillian, AA, Acid Pro, Norton's 10, a few more. So that comes before myspace.
I've got the money to fix my car so that's a good lookout for now. I've got two more jobs with my dad (a bentley house and a homeowner's coverall). All in all I can make about 1500$ in about 3 weeks. So, that's move-the-fuck-out money. A place in Windsong with Anthony is what I'm hoping.
My good friend Amber's dad is dying. To those of you that are religious, please pray for her comfort. I know what it's like to lose someone very close to you, as I'm sure many of you do. I'll be praying for her. I hope some of you too as well.
I'm single.
I'm done with Jessy. I care for her. But she's more than I can handle right now for multiple reasons. There are qualities about her that I let slide multiple times after talking to her about them and they just became overbearing. We fought on the a couple of times, and in the end I couldn't handle it anymore. I was nice as I could be in the relationship and in ending the relationship; I was very curt about it. I never meant to hurt her, but she couldn't understand "it's over." She'll say what she'll say, I'll not defend it, but from my point of view I tried my hardest to do it in a peaceable manner.
I want to be single for a while.
Not saying I won't date, but I don't want to get into a relationship as serious as the implications in my last one. This isn't me me saying, "I just wanna fuck everything for a little while," because I don't. I just want to have fun. I want friends to hang out with, people to talk to, and on the occasion I might take someone out to a movie or down to Gainesville and go to a club. I'm not looking for sex, but if it happens across my path; so be it. If you're too immature to understand that, then I'm sorry. Some people should really grow up.
I'm at a point in my life right now where I'm finally able to make some decisions about myself to better who I am as a person. That decision you just read above is one of those things I think will better me. If I finally stop concentrating on finding 'happily ever after' then maybe I'll find great friends and things that make me happy in the proces. I'm going to cut all negative things out of my life. If you're a consistently depressed person with no outlook on life besides the fact that eventually you'll be graced with death, then don't bother talking to me. I'm done with that. There are only 2 or 3 of my friends like that but I'm making that decision and I can live with it.
I'm tired of watching people with perfectly decent lives piss and moan about how the world's out to fuck them. I know people who have it made and all they do is whine about what they can't have. It's pathetic. I grew up poor; still am. I've not had alot of opportunities besides the one's I've provided for myself; mostly my scholarship and my car. So if you're that kind of person, then you're not my kind of person.
I no longer care if I offend people. I'm going to live my way. I will be on my own shortly, dependant of noone. Things will go much smoother then. My life will not depend on if my dad has the money to buy groceries, or which movie Will wants to watch. Anthony (hopefully) will be the only person that I'm concerned with. I love my friends, and I hope to include them in my life. This post really doesn't concern any of you, it's just shit I need to get out of my head.
So.
In the end, I know sooner rather than later, I'll be a better person from my experiences. Experience has already taught me that much.
I truly do love you all.
Timothy Patrick (Shuman) Byrnes Jr.
I got DSL back. That means I'll be online a bit more now. I'll revamp my myspace quite soon. I gotta do a few updates to my system though. I need all my programs back. Photoshop, Trillian, AA, Acid Pro, Norton's 10, a few more. So that comes before myspace.
I've got the money to fix my car so that's a good lookout for now. I've got two more jobs with my dad (a bentley house and a homeowner's coverall). All in all I can make about 1500$ in about 3 weeks. So, that's move-the-fuck-out money. A place in Windsong with Anthony is what I'm hoping.
My good friend Amber's dad is dying. To those of you that are religious, please pray for her comfort. I know what it's like to lose someone very close to you, as I'm sure many of you do. I'll be praying for her. I hope some of you too as well.
I'm single.
I'm done with Jessy. I care for her. But she's more than I can handle right now for multiple reasons. There are qualities about her that I let slide multiple times after talking to her about them and they just became overbearing. We fought on the a couple of times, and in the end I couldn't handle it anymore. I was nice as I could be in the relationship and in ending the relationship; I was very curt about it. I never meant to hurt her, but she couldn't understand "it's over." She'll say what she'll say, I'll not defend it, but from my point of view I tried my hardest to do it in a peaceable manner.
I want to be single for a while.
Not saying I won't date, but I don't want to get into a relationship as serious as the implications in my last one. This isn't me me saying, "I just wanna fuck everything for a little while," because I don't. I just want to have fun. I want friends to hang out with, people to talk to, and on the occasion I might take someone out to a movie or down to Gainesville and go to a club. I'm not looking for sex, but if it happens across my path; so be it. If you're too immature to understand that, then I'm sorry. Some people should really grow up.
I'm at a point in my life right now where I'm finally able to make some decisions about myself to better who I am as a person. That decision you just read above is one of those things I think will better me. If I finally stop concentrating on finding 'happily ever after' then maybe I'll find great friends and things that make me happy in the proces. I'm going to cut all negative things out of my life. If you're a consistently depressed person with no outlook on life besides the fact that eventually you'll be graced with death, then don't bother talking to me. I'm done with that. There are only 2 or 3 of my friends like that but I'm making that decision and I can live with it.
I'm tired of watching people with perfectly decent lives piss and moan about how the world's out to fuck them. I know people who have it made and all they do is whine about what they can't have. It's pathetic. I grew up poor; still am. I've not had alot of opportunities besides the one's I've provided for myself; mostly my scholarship and my car. So if you're that kind of person, then you're not my kind of person.
I no longer care if I offend people. I'm going to live my way. I will be on my own shortly, dependant of noone. Things will go much smoother then. My life will not depend on if my dad has the money to buy groceries, or which movie Will wants to watch. Anthony (hopefully) will be the only person that I'm concerned with. I love my friends, and I hope to include them in my life. This post really doesn't concern any of you, it's just shit I need to get out of my head.
So.
In the end, I know sooner rather than later, I'll be a better person from my experiences. Experience has already taught me that much.
I truly do love you all.
Timothy Patrick (Shuman) Byrnes Jr.