Some days are easier than others
Today wasn't an easy day. Mom may need to go back to Lincoln for another "procedure". Fluid keeps building up between her right lung and the chest wall. They put in a drain so she could do that necessary thing called breathing, but they can't leave that in forever and unfortunately sshe is still producing a considerable amount of fluid. She sees a surgeon on Wednesday, but I think it's pretty likely she'll end up back in Lincoln. The procedure they would do to keep the fluid from accumulating between her chest wall and her lung isn't uncommon. According to the cardiologist we saw on Friday it's quite common, although I don't think she was comforted by knowing Bill Clinton had the same procedure. That is probably due to the fact that the nurses last week went into far too much detail about what the procedure entails and just how horribly painful it is. *sigh* She's getting excellent care, but I really was not happy that they told her all of that. Now she's stressing and stewing and worrying that she's going to die, no matter what the cardiologist says.
She's also incredibly cranky. Well, in reality her crankiness level hasn't changed much, bur today my hormonal level went into overdrive and so I was bothered a lot more by her inability to say please and thank you. I need a day off, but it's not looking like I'm going to get one at least through Wednesday. Mom's depressed and cranky. I don't blame her, but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with. Argh! I'm sick of myself and my whining. I had a good cry earlier when I tried to activate my new debit card and the automated system wasn't able to get the job done. This means Monday, a day already full with other obligations for me, I'll have to find the time to call the customer service line to try to get acess to my f**king money. I'll have to do some deep breathing before I make that call so I don't get medieval on their asses.
Of course after spending all day with mother, a sucking black holes of need, I come home to the cats...who are four individual sucking black holes of need. I love them dearly, but they can be so annoying. Right now I'm *so* glad I never had children.
Sorry to vent. Now I'm going to go find some chocolate and go to bed. Hope everyone is doing well. Hmm. I just realized that with the laptop I could go watch some Doctor Who in bed. Now that's not a bad way to end a fairly crappy day.
Oh. Before I forget, I want to thank everyone who responded to my last post. I didn't get around to answering everyone individually but the responses were greatly appreciated.
Have a good Sunday everyone!!
She's also incredibly cranky. Well, in reality her crankiness level hasn't changed much, bur today my hormonal level went into overdrive and so I was bothered a lot more by her inability to say please and thank you. I need a day off, but it's not looking like I'm going to get one at least through Wednesday. Mom's depressed and cranky. I don't blame her, but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with. Argh! I'm sick of myself and my whining. I had a good cry earlier when I tried to activate my new debit card and the automated system wasn't able to get the job done. This means Monday, a day already full with other obligations for me, I'll have to find the time to call the customer service line to try to get acess to my f**king money. I'll have to do some deep breathing before I make that call so I don't get medieval on their asses.
Of course after spending all day with mother, a sucking black holes of need, I come home to the cats...who are four individual sucking black holes of need. I love them dearly, but they can be so annoying. Right now I'm *so* glad I never had children.
Sorry to vent. Now I'm going to go find some chocolate and go to bed. Hope everyone is doing well. Hmm. I just realized that with the laptop I could go watch some Doctor Who in bed. Now that's not a bad way to end a fairly crappy day.
Oh. Before I forget, I want to thank everyone who responded to my last post. I didn't get around to answering everyone individually but the responses were greatly appreciated.
Have a good Sunday everyone!!