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so i was talking to andrew today and he asked me why i dont update on lj anymore. my answer was that everytime i updated i sounded selfish or very whiney. but andrew was right, lj is for myself and myself only. i guess that most people created lj to complain and whine about everything anyway. after all, it is a journal. so just to let all of u know, most of my posts arent going to be positive.
well life is going ok. there for a couple days i felt really really wierd and i could figure out why and now i know. i need a change. i guess im just that type of a person. i think im definatey ready for next year. im not ready for the seniors to leave but i cant control that. thats probably why i love theatre so much. i like the constant change. i also like the drama. as long as i didnt start it and i dont have anyone mad at me, its ok. i also like the fact that we dont do the same thing for a long period of time. there is constantly a play going on.
another thing that ive been thinking about is how unfair my parents are.
just because my birthday happened to fall close to state science fair my parents considered it one of my birthday presents. my mom also got me 2 shirts and a phone cover. i was happy. well cheerleading tryouts are coming up and its going to be 500 dollars just for the camp clothes! but my mom is also going to buy her some 110 dollar straightener and clothes and shoes! i dont think thats fair. i souund really really selfish but its not that i want more things for my birthday or that i want carlee to have less its just simply the fact that i want for it all to be equal. the only thing my mom pays for in theatre is going to see the shows. but i bet that i carlee went to state also she would be getting that for her birthday. whatever.
during the fall i would post things like "i cant wait until i can sit by the fire and drink a cuo of hot chocolate with tons of marshmellows" now i cant wait until i can sit in the pool at night with a lemonade in my hand. mmmmm.
another thing that i just cant seem to shake is the fact that im such a freakin slacker!!! im number 74!!! 74!! that is really bad i know that i could easily be in the top 30's. but i would much rather lying on my bed wathcing tv or laying the the bathtub relaxing rather than sitting doing homework. i plan on makeing next year different.
i better go study for my biology test because "its one of the hardest tests ull take in my class". and i need to go memorixe my lines.
always, ~britt~
well life is going ok. there for a couple days i felt really really wierd and i could figure out why and now i know. i need a change. i guess im just that type of a person. i think im definatey ready for next year. im not ready for the seniors to leave but i cant control that. thats probably why i love theatre so much. i like the constant change. i also like the drama. as long as i didnt start it and i dont have anyone mad at me, its ok. i also like the fact that we dont do the same thing for a long period of time. there is constantly a play going on.
another thing that ive been thinking about is how unfair my parents are.
just because my birthday happened to fall close to state science fair my parents considered it one of my birthday presents. my mom also got me 2 shirts and a phone cover. i was happy. well cheerleading tryouts are coming up and its going to be 500 dollars just for the camp clothes! but my mom is also going to buy her some 110 dollar straightener and clothes and shoes! i dont think thats fair. i souund really really selfish but its not that i want more things for my birthday or that i want carlee to have less its just simply the fact that i want for it all to be equal. the only thing my mom pays for in theatre is going to see the shows. but i bet that i carlee went to state also she would be getting that for her birthday. whatever.
during the fall i would post things like "i cant wait until i can sit by the fire and drink a cuo of hot chocolate with tons of marshmellows" now i cant wait until i can sit in the pool at night with a lemonade in my hand. mmmmm.
another thing that i just cant seem to shake is the fact that im such a freakin slacker!!! im number 74!!! 74!! that is really bad i know that i could easily be in the top 30's. but i would much rather lying on my bed wathcing tv or laying the the bathtub relaxing rather than sitting doing homework. i plan on makeing next year different.
i better go study for my biology test because "its one of the hardest tests ull take in my class". and i need to go memorixe my lines.
always, ~britt~