ZETSUBOUSHITAAAAA

[bluntedge]

I think LJ is for the occasional post of self-indulgent whining post, so I SHALL WHINE HERE.

Physical issues:

God I don't know if it's because I'm going to ovulate or something, but I've been bloated like I'm actually getting ready to lay a damned egg. A very large egg, if the size of my inflated tummy is any indication [/TMI]

Have I mentioned being bloated feels gross and also looks remarkably unattractive? Because it kind of does. Goddamn.

Fucking arthritis |8 I had forgotten about it for a while but damn it ate up my left leg whole the other night. HOORAY FOR ACETAMINOPHEN. My left knee is still bugging me, but I can't tell if it might be from overexerting in yoga or not.

Been feeling strangely nauseous/lightheaded today. Sure, I get dizzy sometimes in yoga from the heat, but I had a lot more dizzy/omg-my-vision-turneth-dark-for-a-second moments than usual, and then I've had more of them at home today too. Hmm. I'd attribute it to dehydration (just because I tend to attribute everything to dehydration these days) but I've been inhaling water like a mofo recently which is probably why I'm bloated. D:

Haven't been sleeping well for a solid week now. No matter when I go to bed, I can't stay asleep for more than 5 hours before I wake up. Sure, I can generally fall back asleep, but this can't be healthy.

EDIT: OH BUGGER NOW MY BACK IS KILLING ME

Not-so-physical issues:

The more I look up stuff about going into HR, the more I despair. People on the internet make it seem like HR is filled with morons who couldn't hack it at anything else, which leads HR to become a less-than-good field that tends to do things or get blamed for things that other employees get angry about. What am I getting myself into, really?

The more I try to figure out how my next year at Seneca College is going to be like, the more I rage/despair, because their administration is useless and their information is lacking/confusing at best, and ughhhh just. I don't even know. >_>

Sitting around for the past 4 months doing nothing is taking its toll, clearly, since all I can think about is how bleak my future appears and how unproductive all my days are because I'm such a lazy bum and haven't done any of the things I told myself I'd accomplish since I had the time. |:

Also been mulling over some other personal things that I feel like I'm giving more thought to than I should. |8 *JUDGES SELF FOR SUCH LAME THINKING PATTERNS*

The above is probably why I've been so agitated and in a generally poor mood recently, which I hate because I have trouble covering it sometimes and I do not wish to take it out on others either. :c

Also because I've been having too much time to my own thoughts and poor sleeping patterns, my dreams are more frequent and more closely related to the kinds of things I mull over during the day, except trippier and generally leading to a greater sense of "omgwtfdespairrrr".

ZETSUBOUSHITA. LOLOLOL.